Stray Kids ONE SHOTS

Please stop Ó╭╮Ò(Hyunlix, angst)

Hyunlix
Angst
SA
Drinking alchol 

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"Hi lix!" Hyunjin opens the door to Felix's room and stumbles in, walking over to the younger boy sitting by his desk. Felix takes his headset of, and places it down on the desk, looking up the older. 

"Hi." He let's out a soft laugh taking in the older state, it was clear he had a few drinks, maybe even more than a few. "You're drunk." Felix states, and Hyunjin let's out a loud laugh, he was drunk, because he had gone out for drinks with some of his friends who were in town for work. 

"Are you drunk to?" Hyunjin asks, and leans himself over the younger shoulders, his head banging against Felix for a moment. "If You are, we could have drunk sex like the guys in the k-drama, I'm watching did." Hyunjin giggles finding what he said funny, Felix's laughed along, the older boy was drunk, and he didn't mean anything with his words. Felix got up from his chair, Hyunjin let go of the younger, and let him get on his feet, Felix turned to look at the older boy, and was then being pushed onto the small couch in the corner of the room, his back hit it, and Hyunjin claimed ontop of him. 

"Jin, what are you doing." Felix asked, scared, he tried to push the older boy off him, but Hyunjin wouldn't budge, only pressed his hand down into the couch. "Stop." Felix said, he was so scared, Hyunjin never acted like this before, never ever, he was a soft drunk, he was nice when drunk, and cuddly, he would hug Felix and never leave his side. But this wasn't that, he was being harsh, and was acting so different. Hyunjin moved down closer to the younger, he rests his face in Felix's neck, he placed a soft kiss right under his jaw, tears started to form in Felix's eyes,  Why was he doing this?  "Please jin, stop." Felix let a sob escape his lips, he was so scared, he was scared of his best friend of almost 5 years, his body was trembling, and his tears were running. "Please,stop." He sobbed once more. 

Why am i doing this?  This is not how to do it. It's not. I shouldn't do this. I shouldn't listen to those idiots. This is not who i am, and not what i do. I can't hurt him like this. Will he forgive me?

No he won't, Are you dumb? He will hate you!

No, I'll tell me the truth and he will understand right? 

NO you fucking dumbass! He will hate you forever, he will never look at you the same! 

I'm gonna tell him, I'm gonna say sorry, I'm not gonna do this 

How will he know that you like him if you don't show him?  You will never tell him the truth, so do this, it's the best way. 

He will hate you forever

I can't do this!

It was like something inside Hyunjin clicked, He moved back so fast, standing back up, and staring, as Felix moved to hug himself, sobbing loudly. Hyunjin felt his stomach drop, he did this, to the person he loved the most. 

"I'm sorry." He muttered, no reaction from Felix, just sobs. Hyunjin just stood there, he couldn't do anything there was nothing he could do. "I'm so sorry." He turned to leave, he didn't wanna be there, and Felix didn't want him there either. 

"Why?" Felix's voice stopped Hyunjin dead in his tracks, he sounded so broken, and it was Hyunjin's fault. "Why would you do this? I know you Jin, you don't do this." Felix sobbed out, all he wanted was to know, if Hyunjin had a reason for doing this, and one that isn't 'i wanted to get my dick wet' Then Felix would forgive him. 

"What?" Hyunjin asked, he was confused on why the younger was talking to him. Felix unwrapped himself slowly, and sat with his legs down into the floor. 

"Tell me." Felix said, his crying had slowed down, his eyes were red and almost puffy, yet still full of tears. 

"Okay, um, so i-i went out for drinks, with my friends, You know the once that just came into town." Hyunjin starts, he feels unsure if he should tell the inter-story and the inter-truth, but he decides it's best. "And i told them a-about You...and that i-i I'm in love with you." He almost whispered the last part, but it was still loud enough for Felix to hear, his eye widened slightly, and his mind began racing, as he took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down and remember what was imported. "And, one of them said that the best way to let someone know that they are like in love with them, is to sleep with them, and i thought like, if i sleep with you then you will know." Hyunjin said all of it in one breath, his chest was now rising heavily as he tried to regain himself. 

"Jinnie....that's the worst way." Felix whispers and chuckles a bit, he dries his tears with the back of his hand. "Look at me." He said, and grabbed the older face, making Hyunjin look at him.
"I love you too. I'm in love with you. But....this was not the right way." Felix says, his tone was soft, but his intentions, with what he said was serious. Hyunjin sight and pushes his hand onto his own face, fingers digging into the side, he takes a step closer and kneels down infornt of Felix.

"I tried...-i tried other ways to get you to realize, But somehow you didn't, I mean come on, I hugged you every other second, I kissed your cheek every time we had been away from each other for long. i-i held you when you were sick cause you couldn't sleep. Felix I'm frustrated! Y-you never saw, All of the endless nights i spent talking with you, You think it was all cause i love you as a friend." Hyunjin rambles on, His hand's carefully touching Felix's knees. Felix felt like he just went through every emotion possible, and more. He never thought about it that way, ever, Cause he was scared that if he did, he would make himself believe that the older loved him, and he didn't want to be a 'delulu' crazy person, so he told himself, that everything Hyunjin did was cause he loved him, as a friend. 

"Really?" Felix whispered, his voice a bit strained, Hyunjin nodded, and smiled a little bit, Blinking away a few tears threatening to fall. The younger jumped up and hugged Hyunjin, kissing his cheek, Hyunjin chuckle, thinking how the other had some mood swings. 

"Gosh, You're heavy." Hyunjin huffed, as he kept the other in his arms, the younger shifted on his lap, and then leaned in to press a small kiss on his lips. "I really love you, i love you so fucking much." The older whisper, and pressed his face into Felix's chest, hugging him close, as the other huffed, and then realized into Hyunjin's touch. 

"I love you to, And don't ever do that again please." He whisper and put his face into Hyunjin's hair.

"I won't i promise, I'll always ask before i do somethinng" Hyunjin says and leans back looking into the others eyes. "Can i...hwang Hyunjin, kiss you, Lee Felix Yongbok?" He ask in a polite tone, making Felix giggle, as he nodded, and grabbed to younger face, kissing the other. Hyunjin was quicker to kiss back, pressing his lips a little harder against the younger, not to much to make him uncomfortable again thought. 

They pull back from one another after a  few seconds breathing heavily, as they stared at each other  for a few seconds, before Hyunjin stod up, causing Feilx to yelp, his legs wrapping around the latter's waist, as his grip tightened. Hyunjin waddled over to bed, and laid both of them down, Felix felt a rush of excitement wash over him, but brushed it away as he remembered Hyunjin wasn't sober. Hyunjin, unlike what Felix first thought, Kissed the younger cheek, and then hugged him close, it didn't take long till Hyunjin fell asleep, though Felix didn't notice.

"I missed you, I missed this, we haven't cuddled in so long." Felix babbled, unaware he was talking to a sleeping boy. "Hyunjin, i wanna catch up, what did you do today?" He asks, and wait for an answer but when he didn't get one, he checks to see if the older was awake and realizes he isn't, he chuckles to himself finding it silly that he has talked to a sleeping Hyunjin. Felix didn't mind thought and talked about all the things he had done when Hyunjin wasn't around, all till he to fell asleep. 

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