Stray Kids ONE SHOTS

Pig (-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩___-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩) (2chan,angst)

Binchan

Angst and little fluff

ED body dysmorphia binging SH

Not necessarily couple
I just wanna say before you read this, I have no hate to Changbin at all! I'm writing out my feelings, and when I came up with this I didn't know who to put, but like since Bin's Skzoo plush is a half pig, I thought it would work.
I love Changbin, and I think he so fucking gorgeous, and i don't mean to hate on him in anyway!

He shoved the fork into his mouth, his lips wrapping around it, trembling a bit, tears dripping down and hitting his arms and the plate of cake, he let out a chocked sob, but kept chewing. His mind was all over the place, he didn't know what to do, or what thoughts to listen to, he just sobbed, and stuffed his mouth full of the gross cake.

Pig! You're a fucking pig!
Stop eating so much you're gonna get all fat! 
FATTY!

His mind was screaming at him, he tried to get it to go away, shoving more cake in his mouth, he felt relief every time he did so, but then again hated himself for it. It was like a war inside his head, like Ying and Yang went out of place sliding away from each other, and screaming loudly in his head, Like an earthquake shook his head, spilling all his thoughts all over the place.

He sobbed again, shoving another fork full in his mouth, almost gagging at the horrible taste, the cake was a cheap one from a convenience store just a few blocks away from the dorm, it tasted as if someone mixed eggs, butter and flower into a bowl and then just shaped it up into a cake shape, and glazed it with old mouldy glaze, it was awful, but Changbin didn't care. He kept eating the gross cake, his tears dripping onto the plate again. Changbin set his fork on the plate with the cake, and wiped his tears with the back of his hand on both sides of his face, smearing out the make-up all over his cheek, and hand, but he didn't care not at all, he just picked his fork back up and shoved another load of gross cake in his mouth, chewing it quickly and swallowing it like it was water.

He was alone, sitting on the kitchen floor of his shared room with the rest of 3racha and Hyunjin, his legs were crossed, his back leaning against the cabin of the kitchen island, he was hidden behind the counter, as the side he was sitting on was the one that couldn't be seen from anyone walking past. He held the plate in is hand, he had moved the cake from the plastic container bottom and put it on a glass one, then threw the plastic in the sink, the toper of the cake container was lying on the counter, next to a knife he had used to open the cake with. 

Fork after fork, he filled his mouth, chewed and swallowed, while sobbing loudly, once he took the last piece, and liked both fork and plate clean, he felt regret, and disgust, he had just eaten a whole cake, all by himself, not leaving even a crumb. Changbin put the plate and fork on the floor, and then reached out for the knife, gliding it over, it clattered with the floor, as he lost grip of it, but he didn't mind or care, he took it, and then untied his pants, to thug them down to expose his thigh, he placed the knife there.

Come on, do it! It will make you feel better! You deserve it you fucking pig! Do it, god damnit!

He sobbed, and pressed the blade into his thigh, hissing at the pain, but feeling no more regret about eating that damn cake.

"Changbin!" He hears someone scream out for him, the knife slipping from his hand and onto the floor next to him, he was so started, and scared, his whole body shaking, as he moved to see Bangchan standing on his left side, a hand touching his hand, and pulling him in, his cries got louder. "Oh Binnie" The older muttered, eyes wandering over the plate and fork hugging the younger close to him. But Chanbin pushed him away, getting up and running to the bathroom, Chan didn't even have time to think, his mind wasn't with him in that moment, his breath caught in his throat as he watched the boy run away from him, he scrambled to get back up and charge after him, calling out for his name when he reached the others bedroom door, the door was open so he just stepped right in. 

Changbin had run into his bathroom, falling to his knees against the cold hard floor, crying loudly, he tried to reach for the door but failed, as the cake he had eaten was about to come back up, he reached over the toilet.

Chan stood there panting a bit, from the fast moment just now, and the sound of someone throwing up filled his ears, he sighed, and walked over to the bathroom. 
"Bin...Please don't run away from me." He whispered as he sat down on the floor next to the boy who had just thrown up. 

Changbin didn't say anything, just took a few deep breaths, trying to come back, he felt relief seeing that the cake had left his body, even if he didn't intend it this time, he was still happy. 

"Bin." Chan whispered, Changbin slowly looked at the other, tears still streaming down his face, make-up smeared and puke on the side of his mouth, he was a fucking mess, feeling disguised by himself for looking like that in front of the other, chan could see it in his eyes. "It's okay, it happens when one eats a little too fast, yeah?" He nods a few times, reassuring the younger, and bin finally hugs him, sobbing into his chest.

"I'm so fucking gross, I'm a fucking pig, stuffing my face like that." He cries loudly, his voice muffled by Chan's shirt. Chan closes his eyes and shakes his hand, hugging the younger close, kissing the top of his head.

"No, sweetheart, you're not a pig, you're not gross, You are fucking amazing and gorgeous, okay?"
He whispers reassuringly, keeping him close, and warm. 

Oh how i love this feeling

Changbin thought to himself, loving the warmth of one of Chan's bear hugs, crying into his shirt, making it damp, he nodded into his chest, like he was accepting the older words, even if he didn't think it was true, he still accepted Chan's thoughts.

"Mhm? let me start a bath for you, bin-ah" Chan whispers, and stands up, pulling the younger up with him, then closes the toilet lid, setting the latter down, and kisses his forehead, then reaches over to turn on the water for the bath, letting it run hot for a short while, then placing (the thing in the bottom) in, the water soon filling up.

"Arms up, love." He whispered, and Changbin did as told, lifting his arms up so that Chan could pull his shirt of, Changbin smiled tiredly, making Chan smile to. He placed the shirt in the laundry basket next to the sink. Then looked down at the younger pants, which were still untied, then back at Changbin, who nodded, so Chan nodded, then got down to help the other with his pants, and boxer in one go. Changbin lifted his bottom off the seat, as Chan pulled them down, looking away once the younger was naked, not looking at him whatsoever. 
Chan moved back, shucked the pants and boxers into the laundry bin, and then put his hand into the water to see if it was to hot, which it wasn't so, he noted to Changbin.
"Come here." He said softly, and Changbin carefully stood up, took a step forward, and then got into the bathtub, Chan looked away not wanting to invade the privacy of the other, he reached for the bath salt, and poured some in. 

"Stay," Chanbin whispers, and Chan nods, silently sitting next to the younger as he bathed, once in a while the older would speak up, only to tell Changbin how pretty he was, or that he was perfect, or that he was everything to Chan. Changbin ended up convincing the older to get in with him, who could Chan say no? Chan was sitting behind him, arms hugging him around the waist, he had kept both boxers and a t-shirt on, so they both would be comfortable.

.・゜-: ✧☾　☽✧ :-゜・.

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