Once a dream now a reality. A Jilly love story

Lily part 20

I don't know why I still like James. Could it be the way he makes me smile or the fact that I can't stay mad at him forever. Yes I am still pretty pissed at him. But Sirius has tried to explain. An Remus. And Peter. But still. I want to move on but I can't. It's like it's not humanly possible.
"Marlene."
"Yeah."
"Is it bad if I still like someone after breaking up with them?"
She thinks hard and pulled a face of frustration.
"Look if it's snivellous I will hex you but if it's James then that another story."
"It's probably stupid. Isn't it."
"Look I wouldn't say that. Probably the fact that its taken a week for you to realise that you possibly fucked up the relationship with him. Maybe try being friends with him might work." God I hate it when she's right.
"Can you go with me to the funeral tomorrow. I can't deal with it all alone."
"Sure lils I'll go with you."
We sit in a comfortable silence but I hate it. I'm left with my thoughts. Do I like him? Can I face the fact my parents are dead? The train ride finishes and I hop out. My sister and her husband are waiting.
"Hey tuney. Vernon."
"Hello freak."
"Bitch." I say to petunia.
We walk back to the car and drive to mum and dads place. It looked so dull. Mums petunias and lilies were dead. And dad's workshop was covered in webs. It was absolutely horrendous.
"You can get your stuff from your room and get anything I don't want." Petunia demands.
"K."
As I walk into my room 2 letters sit on my bed. They both had the same swirly writing. James.
I open the first one and I hold back tears.
Dear lily,
I hope your holidays have been well. I really miss you. And just warning you I had a letter sent for you a couple of weeks ago scheduled for today for your Christmas present. But ... you know... stuff happened. You have probably thrown this in the fire by now, knowing how much you hate my guts, but I wanted to explain. It won't mean much but I thought you should know... I will never stop fighting for you. I know it's a losing game but I need you to hear the truth. I went down to the lake and I sat on the rock while waiting for you. I see Hayley jones walking towards me with her camera.
"Smile for the picture."
I smile sticking out my tongue.
"Sticking out your tongue for the picture."she starts to move closer putting a hand on my chest. "Your so pretty. Your so popular. You and I would be the rulers of the school. We would be a power couple."
"No. I have a girlfriend."
"Yeah and I dont see her. She doesn't need to know what we do."
She then when I was about to respond she smashes her lips onto mine and I was momentarily shocked. Frozen. As I remember this I realise I've been a dumbass. I looked around for some help but as I saw you I tried to get you to help but Hayley pins my arms down so I cant force her off. So yeah that's what happened. I know I can be a dickhead some times but that won't stop me from caring about you. Also on a unrelated note Sirius and I may or may not have caused a fire to go round the forest at home. So we are grounded. And we had one last letter we could send and I thought of asking moony for help but I chose you.
Yours sincerely James
I reread this and open the other letter that had something bulging out of it a bit. I tipped it upside down over my bed and a letter and a small box came out.
Dear lily flower
Merry Christmas love, sorry for being a dick sometimes but always remember I love you and I will never stop. Can't wait till next year for another year with you lils
Love James
I open the box and find a necklace with a heart pendant with writing on it. simul in aeternum tecum. At this I really start crying. Petunia looks threw the door and just watched. I was a wreck.
"What don't you have your widdle boyfwiend to cry on their shoulder."
"Fuck you."
Time skip to on the train.
"I can't sit with you girls sorry. I got head girl."
"Congrats." Marlene says.
I jog off to the front carriage looking at the early prefects. Remus, Hayley, Ted and of coarse fucking snape.
"Well hello prefects. It seems Dumbledore chose some exceptional students this year. I am head girl this year and we can all start doing the rounds and working out a roster."
Just as I finish saying that James stumbles through the door and Remus face palms himself.
"Hello potter. Why do you need Remus?"
"Ahh lily didn't remmy tell you? I'm head boy."
Shit.
"Ok."
We organise the roster when the others get there. And honestly it wasn't to bad working with potter.
A/N
Hello potterheads so I'm thinking of making this story a shorter one as honestly I'm just not feeling it. But I won't leave y'all on a cliffhanger. I'm mad not evil. Hope y'all are happy and healthy. Also anyone who works out what the pendant means you win.
Love LunaMoon