FIDAA | (On Hold till Indefinite Time)

CHAPTER - 19

It was the beautiful night after the marriage of rhe couple. Aahana had previously changed into her comfortable clothes and now was asked by the ladies of the family to wait for her husband. She was feeling anxious about how to express herself to him that she did not want any steps further in their marriage. She had always been a staunch believer that all the intimate steps whether the couple is married or not should be consensual and neither of the two people should be forced in it.

With these thoughts she was lost in a world of her own when the door of the room opened. Her eyes drifted to the person who had entered and saw that it was none other than her husband. She got up from her place and looked at him but it seemed as if words had stuck in her throat.

Dressed in a navy blue shirt tucked inside black pants and sleeves folded, he looked no less than a greek god. His hairs were all ruffled as if somebody had run their hands through them many times. His sharp eyes and chiseled jaw bone which seemed as if it can cut even through a diamond were looking so enticing and enchanting and this was the most nervous she had felt after her medical undergraduate exams.

Aahana in her whole life had only felt extreme nervous twice. One was when the results of the UG exams were going to be out and the second one was today after looking at this man standing in front of her. God it was so dreamy. She had not seen a man more handsome and perfect in such a cl9se proximity. Of course Jungkook was her first crush and she had spent all her time in drooling upon him but her husband.

He was the first man she had seen so hot and handsome being so close. The chain of her thoughts broke when she saw him taking a pillow and a blanket from the bed and keeping it on the couch.

"What are you doing?"

"Hmm, what ?"

"Why are you keeping the pillow and blanket there?"

"As far as I know, you clearly will not be comfortable in taking any step forward and also sharing a bed is one of the things. So if nothing is going to take place then there is no any reason for me to sleep there. And moreover it would not be civil of me to let you sleep on the couch on the very first night. Therefore I am taking the couch. Good night."

It seemed that after these words the ground slipped from beneath her legs and the eues which claimed that they never cry spilled tears from them. The whole colour of her face drained and it seemed as if she had not seen something more frightful than this.

She had not felt more humiliated in her whole life until now. Was she a mere person to satisfy his sexual needs and he would only use her when he wanted to satiate himself. She was a doctor, one of the best one who was far more astute than any of the other people present in the whole house and currently more than her parents ahe hated herself.

The girl who used to give powerful speeches on respect and women empowerment just witnessed the most painful moment of her life. Now she understood why the women who always experienced it never spoke against it but she was not one of them.

Anger and fury had replace the tears and she was not one of them who would stay silent and let her self respect go down the drain. She moved towards the couch in front of the man who currently was sitting on it and very leisurely using his phone.

Snatching the phone away from his hand and throwing it on the floor she held his collar and made him stand up.

"What the fuck so you think of yourself huh? How dare you even to use such words for me. Itni majaal ho gyi? Aaj ke baad apni aukaat me reh ke baat karna warna bhale hi muje jail hi kyo na jaana pade lekin tumhaari jaan le lungi mai. Apni tameez mat bhulo warna agar maine apni limits bhuli na to pachtawe ke alawa kuch nhi rahega. Yaad rakhna."

She jerked him and left his collar and straightaway went to the bed to sleep with tears slipping from her eyes and heard the door shut.

After spewing such hateful words to the one girl he had fallen so deeply in love with and wounding her with his words on the first night of their marriage he could not think of anything other than this. The gloves were thrown aside and the punching bag felt thrashes after thrashes on it till it witnessed the crimson liquid flow through it which satiated its hunger.

The injured lover resting on the wall beside it with tears spilling from his eyes and blood superficially flowing frim his hand but deep inside it was his heart which cried.

His Aahana was hurt. She cried. But it was his heart which bled. He stilled on the floor with the drops of blood and tears around.

He could never ever forgive himself and the punishment for this grave crime was necessary.

The next day....

Aahana woke up on her bed but there was no sign of Aadhrit around. It seemed as if he was not present in the room at night. Brushing off his thoughts she went to get ready. Dressed in a beautiful saree and just her mangalsutra, one bangle on each hand and her ring she looked no less than a beauty amd descended from the stairs.

"Aahana arre itni jaldi tayaar ho gyi beta. Thodi der aur aaraam kar leti. Itni thak gyi thi."

"Nhi maa vo neend jaldi khul gayi to maune socha tayaar ho jaati hun."

"Accha Aadhrit utha ya phir nhi"

"Umm maa vo room me nhi the jab mai uthi to."

"Ohh. Ho sakta wo workout ke liye gya ho. Chalo koi ni. Accha beta tum ready to ho na."

"Kis cheez ke liye maa."

"Tumhe nhi pata. Shaadi ke baad nayi bahu ko pehle din kuch meetha banana hota h. Pehle uska bhog bhagwan ko lagta h phir saare gharwale usse chakte h aur nayi bahu ko shagun dete h. Ek kaam karo tum na halwa bana lo. Theek hai. Baaki saara nashta to staff bana lenge tum ue bana lo tab tak sab ready hoke bahar aa jayenge." And saying this she left.

"What the hell yaar. Ab ye halwa kaise banate h." She started searching on youtube but could not get the perfect measurements. After figuring out something finally she prepared it and with tge help of a staff she brought it outside. Her mother in law went to gave the first bowl to god amd came .

She saw her husband sitting on the head chair wearing a very crisp black shirt and looking all drool worthy but after seeing him only she felt those disgusting words of. Him coming back and the tears made their way from her eyes but somehow she controlled herself.

But the most astonishing thing she saw were his hands. The knuckles looked as they had so deep cuts and were wrapped in a bandage. His palm looked bloodied and so injured bit it was more surprising for her to see how to family members were so nonchalant and chilled out about it. Nobody even take a look at it as if it was a daily occurrence. She definitely wanted to ask but she had her own self respect which she would never let get damaged.

After the halwa was offered to god the staff started putting it in everybody's bowls. She along with her mother in law and chachi were tge only ones standing and everybody else was eating. It was sickening for her to see how disrepectful it was and she made a disgusted face and rolled ger eyes. Even Aadhrit's bua and her cheap daughter were also sitting bit here she was standing and watching them eat.

Until she heard Aadhrit's bua shouting " Ye kya banaya h."