𝐎𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 | 𝐇𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱 ✔

𝟘𝟘:𝟚𝟝

He was happy. Felix was happy with Hyunjin. They had gotten closer over the course of the past few months regularly inviting the other over for chats or dinner. He knew he liked Hyunjin. Ever since they had first met, Felix was undoubtedly attracted to the other and over time he began noticing the small things that always made him smile.

Hyunjin's over dramatic antics, always over exaggerating his reactions, but they did nothing but bring happiness to Felix. His need for physical touch which Felix would gladly provide, leaning into the head pats he'd constantly give. That Cosmopolitan photoshoot allowed him to hear Hyunjin's precious laugh and notice that he'd clap his hands when he was feeling particularly excited. And the nickname calling. The nicknames.

Felix remembered the time when Hyunjin first called him 'Baby'. Felix had invited Hyunjin backstage to a Stray Kids performance at an award show and they were getting a snack from the vending machine.

Crouching down, he had chosen a drink and was about to pay when he felt a hand brush through his hair. He unconsciously leaned back into it, a blush simultaneously forming on his face.

"You done choosing?" Hyunjin asked

He hummed in response, preparing to pay.

A voice yelled from down the hallway. Of course. It was Changbin. "Guys, hurry up and quit flirting!"

He felt the tip of his ears burn and knew he was turning red. He hurriedly paid and grabbed the drink from the machine. The hand was back in his hair.

"You ready baby?"

Felix thought the world ceased moving when that sentence finally registered in his brain. He spun around to look at Hyunjin, eyes wide.

Hyunjin seemed to realise what he said and sheepishly smiled. "Sorry was that too much? I can stop if it makes you uncomfortable."

"No no!" Felix answered, perhaps a tad too excited, "It's alright..."

A hand was placed in his, and Hyunjin pulled Felix up from the floor. "Come on baby, let's go before Changbin kills us."

Felix did not know how he was going to survive.

Looking back at the situation, Felix was reminded of all the fun times he had with Hyunjin. The late nights playing games or watching movies, Hyunjin animatedly talking about his favourite scenes and characters. The compliments he'd always get once he returned from the stage, while Hyunjin continuously praised him. It made him feel happy and content with his life.

Now it was all over social media. He knew. Felix knew that one day their hangouts would be leaked. He just didn't anticipate it happening so soon. He wanted more time. Time to get to know Hyunjin more, to learn about his childhood, his parents, his friends. He wanted time to ask him out on a date and be able to have their firsts together. In the back of his mind, Felix wondered why he hadn't asked Hyunjin out already. But, the answer was clear. He wasn't confident in whether Hyunjin returned those feelings, whether he even liked guys or liked him in general. Felix was scared.

Picking up his phone, his hands shook as he dialled Hyunjin's number.

"Felix?"

"H-Hi... Look I'm sorry about the media and everything. I know we aren't together and that they're making it all up but I wanna apologise. It could affect your career. I don't even know if you're gay but I'm sorry. Um, I think we should stop talking to each other for a while to let things calm down. I'm really sorry!"

"Felix wait-"

He hung up. Hugging his knees to his chest he felt tears well up in his eyes. Why couldn't he be less emotional? Why did he have to fall in love with Hyunjin? Why had he brought this on himself?