𝐎𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 | 𝐇𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱 ✔

𝟘𝟘:𝟚𝟡

Felix felt light. The constant heaviness of his body, his head throbbing was gone. He didn't know where he was but he felt so comfortable, so relaxed in this state. He could vaguely hear muffled voices surrounding him but all he focused on was the calm atmosphere he was in. He wasn't sure what was going on or what was happening. He just felt light.

***

When Felix awoke again he wished he hadn't. Blinding white lights caused him to groan in pain and squeeze his eyes shut once more.

"Felix? Are you ok?"

That sentence was surprisingly in English. Felix turned slightly to notice Chan sitting beside him. Worry was evident on his face as he leaned over to assess Felix's body trying to notice if anything was off.

"W-What's going on?" His native tongue jumping out.

"You worked yourself to the brink of exhaustion. Barely sleeping and eating. Felix you know this isn't good for you. What's going on?" Chan asked.

"I-I can't do this."

"You can't do what?"

"I wanna be with him hyung. I wanna be happy with Hyunjin but I'm scared. Even though there are only rumours I've already gotten multiple hate comments and I can't lie and say it doesn't affect me. But, I'm scared it'll impact his career and then ruin Stray Kids too. I can't let that happen, you'll all hate me." Felix's voice wavered at the end.

"Lix we could never hate you," Chan stated, firm in his opinion, "No matter what you do. We're a team, a family we'll always understand. I know you love Hyunjin. You know what I say?"

Felix looked up at him expectantly.

"I say screw them. Screw the company, the haters, everyone. Do what you wanna do, what makes you happy. Because if the fans stop you from being happy they are not fans. If the company prevents your happiness then we'll leave. What matters is you. Your safety, your well-being, your happiness. I don't care if we get cancelled, and the whole group agrees, you will always come first."

Tears welled up in his eyes and he felt Chan's arms wrap around him. "I love you" he whispered, "I love you all so much."

Chan smiled. "We love you too. But, you need to talk to Hyunjin alright?"

"Yes."

The door opened and Han's face appeared. "Hi! Lix I'm really glad you're all better now but someone really wants to see you."

Taken aback, Felix replied, "Uhhh sure."

Then Hwang Hyunjin stepped into the room and all Felix could focus on was him. Looking at him now Felix noticed the bags under his eyes and his dishevelled messy hair. Felix wondered how much worry and anxiety he had caused him over the past few days.

"Felix no."

He looked up at Hyunjin who was now sitting by his bedside.

"Don't think that alright? I don't care what happens to me when you're clearly not ok."

Felix looked down at his hands. "But I care what happens to you."

"God you're so cute!" Felix's eyes widened in surprise. "Look. About what you said during the call. I don't care whether my career plummets. I don't care if I lose my popularity, or my status because I love you. I love you so much... and I'd really like to date you."

It was as if someone had knocked the breath out of his lungs because Felix felt like he couldn't breathe. He just stared at him. Stared at Hyunjin continuously wondering whether he was in a dream.

"Felix?"

He was snapped out of his trance. "Sorry, sorry. You really want to date me?"

"Yeah." Hyunjin smiled. "If you'd have me."

"Yes," Felix replied, breathless. "Yes!"

Hyunjin laughed and pulled him into a hug. Felix relished Hyunjin's warmth and how nice it was to be in his arms. He didn't know who moved first but before he knew it a pair of lips was on his and Felix kissed back pouring his love and passion into it.

For the first time in months, Felix finally felt happy.