[ A Gem In a Dawn || banana fish Oneshots ]

Drifted apart.

 This one shot is about if ash died, how is Eiji coping after 7 years of his passing?
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-   Eiji POV ::

It's been a very long time since Ash's passing, it's all my fault. Ash has always been so strong, no matter how fucked up the world is, ash never gives up.

Lay down flat faced on my pillow, my room smells like a sewer drain, while I haven't showered my hair in 2 days. My eyes are blood shot red. But who cares, ash went through so much. I decide that it's maybe time to take a shower.

I strip myself and get in the shower. Feeling the hot water splash my hair. I slowly caress my long hair, feeling the spot ash touched when he was in prison. Why did ash like me so much, it's all my fault for everyone's deaths.

It's my fault skipper died, shorter died, even his stepmother. I don't deserve to be in this world, I wish a black void would swoop me inside.

I get out the shower and wrap a red towel around myself.
"Wow I've gotten smaller, haven't I." I sigh. I haven't eaten in about 3 days, I always malnourished myself.

As I lotion up my arms and legs, my phone starts ringing, I pick it up and see that it's sing.
"Sing, hello? Is anything wrong?" I say with a confused tone, "Oh, eiji! You finally picked up."
He said in a excited tone.
"Yep, what do you need" I said getting straight to the point. "I was wondering if- if me and yut-lung can fly over to you. It's been a year since I saw you, are you doing okay?"

I honestly didn't want him to come, I didn't want him to see how depressed and dull I looked. But, I guess I had no choice but to say yes. I actually really missed him, a lot. And Ash's old gang, I hope they are living the life's they deserve.

"Of course you guys can! just make sure he doesn't kill me, would'ja?" I anxiously giggled. "Alrighty, I'll book the earliest plane tickets and tell you the rest of the information when I get them." He said, I could tell he was smiling so brightly.
"Okay, I'll see you later sing. Please be careful out there sing... I'm begging you." I said worriedly, I don't want him to go through the same thing ash did.
"I won't Eiji, I promise!"
We both said our goodbyes and hanged up. I continued getting dressed, I put on the blue pajama shirt
ash had always wore.

I always wondered what life would be like if he came to Japan with me,
I then drifted off to sleep having dreams of my soulmate,
Aslan.

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A/N : that's it guys, hope you enjoyed. I'll make more later.