➳ so sweet and so cold // hyunlix

chapter 15

"You do everything right."

Were the words that echoed in Hyunjin's mind constantly ever since Felix let them free, offering Hyunjin the occasion of hearing them. He tried to force them to the back of his head and drown them until they were no more. They were making everything harder for him. What did Felix mean? When he said that to Hyunjin, the man suddenly felt a weight on his heart not allowing him to even want to be mean to Felix anymore and regret everything he's ever said to him. He can't even look at Felix without wanting to wrap him like a burrito and love him as he could. Why does he feel a sudden wave of affection wash over him?

Why can't he put his feelings aside and prioritise what's important? Felix tried to steal from his best friend, he was untrustworthy and a liar. He betrays and does everything in his own favour. Why can't Hyunjin ever change and stop caring so much about everyone undeserving of his love?

But at the same time, he feels bad for the blonde. He never understood why since a while ago, he just wants to have any excuse to see Felix. He can't explain why he gets mad when Felix puts himself in danger. And he even stopped questioning why Felix doesn't piss him off anymore. It's like he almost ended an internal conflict that's been going on for a little over a month in his heart. It's like he came to terms with his emotions.

Hyunjin doesn't understand why Felix asked him to spend the night with him at the hotel he was at. And he also doesn't understand why he accepted.

"Hyune, uhm..." Hyunjin heard Felix's quiet and hesitant tone as he arranged himself in the driver seat, doing his belt as he shuffled a little to get comfortable.

The assassin's head turned, no, snapped in Felix's direction the second he heard his low timbre calling for his name. He was so attentive. Strands of hair flew in his face at the sudden movement of his head, already disheveled as it was. "Yeah?" His voice was soft and shy as he tried to keep his eyes on Felix without wavering away. Though, the boy avoided his gaze as he kept his eyes on his lap.

"Would you..." He started but immediately stopped himself, shaking his head and looking out the window. Hyunjin could see conflicted emotions paint themselves on his soft features. Felix's lips were drawn downwards as his eyes raced fast along everything presented before him on the window.

"Tell me." Hyunjin encouraged him as he fixed his position to show Felix he had his entire attention.

Felix sighed as he shook his head again. "It's stupid."

"It's not. Just tell me." Hyunjin tried again, feeling his body direct itself more and more toward Felix as he let his entire weight on the seat that was holding him.

Felix visibly gulped as his mind began working on sentences again and Hyunjin was so impatient. "Would you like to..." His voice trailed away as he bit his lip anxiously, feeling his teeth dig deep in the flesh. "Would you like to accompany me at my hotel?" Felix finally gained courage to spill what has been gnawing at his brain for the past minutes.

Hyunjin's brain blanked out when he finally processed the words. His eyebrows scrunched and his head snapped backwards in confusion, his gaze dissociating. "What?" He muttered to himself still not understanding why Felix said that. He's supposed to be sleeping at Minho's mansion until he leaves for America again.

Felix rolled his eyes and sighed again, feeling embarrassment drown him. "Forget it. I told you it's stupid." He muttered again as he tried opening the car door and leave, but Hyunjin caught on too quick and locked the doors.

"No, I- what? You want me to just take you there or... stay there with you?" Hyunjin asked just to make sure he understood, his head bursting from the many more questions he had in it. Seeing as Felix ceased to reply to his question he continued, reassuring him as he placed a hand on his knee, squeezing it softly. "Of course I will."