Harry Potter Universe One shots

Regret (Draco Malfoy)

Rather short Draco Angst. I somehow had fun writing this, am I crazy? Draco is rather toxic here; he sees her as a possession, gaslightes, etz...

Word Count: 1133 Words

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I'm tired and I honestly just want to sleep. It's been a long day of listening to teachers talk, some rather passionate and some very bored by their own topic.

I open the door to my dorm and instead of meeting Pansy, my room mate, I see Draco standing in front of me.

Draco, whom I broke up with three weeks ago because he was way too controlling over me. And now, he is standing here and looking at the drawings on my desk as if nothing happened.

How the hell did he get into my dorm in the first place?

"Draco? What are you doing here?" I utter perplexed. I do not want to see him here, especially not today after a long day.

He turns around and his eyes soften the moment they land on me, "Y/N." he says just above a whisper.

"What are you doing here in my dorm?" I repeat, my voice stern and my eyes narrowed.

"I wanted to talk to you." he says softly, "And, well, Pansy let me in."

"Fucking Parkinson." I mutter to myself while I close the door behind me and gesture him to sit down on my bed. As he does so, I seat myself on the chair next to my desk and gesture him to talk, "You've got 5 minutes for whatever bullshit you're gonna tell me now." I hiss.

"I wanna apologize," he starts, searching eye contact for the first time, "and I want you back."

"Of course you bloody do. You treated me like shit and after I broke up with you, you come crawling back. Fucking typical." I scoff while rolling my eyes.

"It's not that okay? When I saw you with Diggory today, I freaked and realized that I didn't wanna be without you." He explains.

Not bloody good enough.

"You wanna tell me, you realized that after three weeks? Only after you saw me hanging out with a guy - a friend of mine on top of that?" I stand up from my seat and put my face in my hands, agitated by his calm demeanor.

"I always knew." He says calmly and I look back at him, "You were always mine and you will always be, no matter if we are together or not."

He says these words with so much sincerity, though it burns a hole into my heart. My chest aches and my head hurts from all the thinking.

"And there it is again." I mutter, my face pulling a grimace, "I am not yours to have, okay? I am my own person and not some kind of object that you can just posses. This is exactly why I broke up with you, you can not perceive me as your doll and control who I can and who I can not meet okay?" I raise my voice unknowingly the more annoyed I get.

He just doesn't understand or listen to a single word I say.

"I wouldn't have been controlling if you wouldn't have met the bloody Diggory all the time!" He yells and as he notices that I flinched, he lowers his voice again, "I didn't ever want him to take you away from me."

"No you don't get to turn this on me" I shake my head and chuckle ironically, "I never did anything that hinted for you not to trust me."

"It can not be just my fault." He states, his face rather mad now.

"I can not be with you anymore." I say straightforward, my face erased of any emotion, "I don't want to be treated as an object anymore. You can't take me out of a box like a doll when you are bored. And I want to meet people of my own liking, my actual friends."

"And what if these friends try something on you?" he hisses.

I raise my eyebrow and roll my eyes, "First of all, I can defend myself all too well. Second, I am a loyal person and I do not even dare to think of another guy when I'm in a relationship. Third, my friends would never." I state.

"So you will not accept my apology?" He furrows his brows while scoffing.

Did I miss a Chapter or did he not apologize at all?

"What fucking apology?" I let out an airy laugh.

I'm so done with his shit.

"Did you even ever love me or was it all an act?"

"I did love you. But I don't anymore." I state matter of factly.

"So I suppose you've moved on already?" he clenches his jaw.

I drive my fingers through my hair and sigh, "I have. Actually I'm going out with someone tomorrow, someone who doesn't treat me like crap."

"Oh fuck you. Yea? I might just go and fuck Pansy then, what do you say about that?"

"Poor Pansy." I fake innocence, "Jealousy was never one of your better traits."

He snorts and cracks his knuckles while standing up and coming closer, "What's his name?" He demands more than he asks.

"Why do you wanna know?"

"Because I'll fucking kill him." he hisses while looking down at my lips.

"You would never kill your best friend, Draco." I gaze up into his eyes, only now realizing how extremely close we actually are, "You might have a heart of ice so small it's barely visible, but you do have a heart." I whisper.

He bites down on his bottom lip and I can see tears forming in his eyes, though he would never let them escape onto his cheeks, "You'll come crawling back sooner or later, I just have to wait." he says calmly.

"A year ago, I probably would have, but now, not anymore. I'd be happy to hear you moved on, I'm sorry Draco." I give him a small nod.

Now his whole face shows sadness as he gazes into my eyes once more. They are filled with love and heartbreak as he puts a hand up to my cheek softly.

His hand is big so he easily turns my head slightly and presses a soft kiss to my other cheek, "In another Universe, in another life, we'll be together. I'm sorry for...everything."

This bipolar asshole is gonna make me emotional if he doesn't stop.

He takes his hand off my cheek and walks out of my dorm. He simply walks out, leaving me completely. And someone it feels like he also just walked out of my life for a final time.

I can feel it and it feels like a weight lifted off my shoulders.

I'm sorry Draco.