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We read it all.
Most of the conversations we doubled back to more than once out of shock.
I'm livid.
I'm quite honestly on the verge of of crying but we in public so I'm doing my best to hold it together and I know Sky can see it all on my face. "I'm going to shoot him" I don't even look at her I just take a long sip from my coke again —finishing it off and putting the phone back in my purse.
Since dating Chris we've had our ups and downs I can admit—I mean we practically grew up together & every couple goes though something.
That's not what's breaking me though, he cheated.
How could I even take him back or look him in the eyes after seeing him talk down on me and lie about our relationship to a random woman.
I would have never did this to him.
I'm not sure what I did wrong.
Was he just not attracted to me anymore? He always said that we would be together forever, how he wanted me to have his kids and he loved me like no one else could. What happened to that?
I'm not sure if it's the liquor or the fact that the man I've been in love with since we were kids would do me like this, waste my time like this, promising our life's together. He so bullshit.
Right before Sky can say anything to break the voice I'm my head I just start laughing. And I mean full on laughing like I just seen the funniest shit ever but I can't help it.
"Ummm" is all she says and I don't know why that just made it ten times more funny.
At this point I'm hitting my hand on the table —probably looking manic.
"I just-" I wrap up my giggles
"I just really cant believe this weird ass bitch, after all we done been through he dog me out like this???" Sky cuts me off "don't even think of it like that that nigga lameee, been lame. You deserve so much more" And deep down I know I did.
I just want to not think about any of this shit anymore. I go to stand up instantly regretting taking that last shot. Everything is moving so fucking fast, people dancing, talking.
"you good?" Sky questions me reaching for my hand to steady me in these heels. I haven't been this drunk in a while.
I might've went a little to hard.
"Yea, I'm going to the restroom" I keep it short and sweet but I'm not okay at all. I hurry as much as I can pushing past all these damn people on the way to the Women's Room trying not to have my tears fall until I get behind closed doors.
