Love & Scars

Malibu Barbie

A month had passed since the night Sirius told her he didn't love her anymore. A month has passed since she had seen her friends. They talked to the Potters and Remus every day and talked for hours on the phone. She hasn't heard from Sirius, but she had seen pictures of him with the same woman in the papers for the past weeks. He was clear – he didn't love her – it should therefore not be a surprise to her, but it was anyway. She had cried in Regulus' arms for an hour after that.

"Hi." Cor said coming into the bedroom. They were in a hotel room in Italy right now. He smiled but it didn't reach his eyes.

She cocked her head to the side. "Is everything alright?"

"We need to talk."

"Oh." That doesn't sound good. " Okay, sit." She patted the space next to her. He climbed into bed with her and took her hands in his. "Talk to me."

"I loved you for years, probably even before we got together. The first night I saw you on stage, you took my breath away." He was silent for a moment. "I'm still so madly in love with you and I want to marry you, but I can't."

"Cor, I-"

"Please, let me finish. This is hard for me." She nodded, squeezing his hands tightly. "I always wished you would get your memories back, you and Roan. And now that you have, you need to work through it, you need to reconnect with you friends, with Sirius. If, for some reason, it's really over between you two, I'm here. But -"

She shook her head. "He doesn't love me. Besides I love you."

"But you love him more." He kissed her temple when she opened her mouth. "It's okay. I wanted to make this work, you have no idea how badly. But I recently listened to your songs again, really listened. They are almost all about him... and your Patronus. Even though you couldn't remember, a part of you, a part of your heart always remembered him. I heard Harry say you have the same one as Sirius. That means something, babe."

"Just give me time. I'll move on from him, you just need to give me time."

"I don't think you will ever move on from him, just like he hasn't moved on from you."

"I told you, Cor. He doesn't love me, he told me so."

"I don't believe it. I've seen the way he looks at you. He's so madly in love with you it was noticeable the first time he laid eyes on you again."

She looked down at their clasped hands and brought them to her lips, kissing his knuckles softly. "Can you stay? Just for tonight."

"Always. Friends first, remember?" They shifted until they laid down, he pulled her onto his chest, giving her a soft kiss.

"I'm sorry I couldn't love you like you deserved." She looked into his big brown eyes.

"You letting me in, you loving me to the best of your ability was more than I deserved."

She cupped his cheeks and leaned in to kiss him. A hand went into his hair while he placed his hands on her hips. They both knew this was the end, their last night together and they wanted to savour it. The next morning, he placed a kiss on her forehead before he walked out of the room. Izzie cried herself back to sleep and when she woke again, Regulus had pulled her into his lap, whispering softly to her.

The tour was coming to an end, and their last and final stop was back in London. She knew the papers were filled with headlines over her broken engagement. But she hasn't heard a word from Sirius. He really didn't love her anymore.