NEVER LETTING YOU GO

17.

HI. I'm writing tae's pov in italics guys. 

Taehyung jolted up suddenly , he felt as if his head is been hammered repeatedly as he held his head with both hands and grabbed his hairs upon this stinging feeling . He shot up , eyes as wide as saucers looking around the room in a very hurry manner.

I was dying!!...Am i alive?? . He kept his hands on his body frantically moving his hands, looking at himself in the mirror, his eyes teared up. He doesn't know what's happening to him. 

Someone please save me. My eomma , appa and- . I felt like i'm going to die. What's happening with me ? I was fine till last night. yeah , last night-

His eyes widened when he remembered that he fainted in his arms, being overwhelmed of his questions. His questions. But he can't remember anything after that expect for-

His thought bubble suddenly burst when baekhyun abruptly opened the door . 

''Oh thank god you're awake '' ''are you alright? any dizziness ? should i call the doc-''

''I'm feeling okay'' taehyung interrupted.

Baekhyun sighed in relief but again panicked internally seeing taehyung's glossy eyes. He passed him the glass of water he was holding for past few mins. 

''W-what happened?'' Baekhyun questioned hesitantly. He's well aware that he shouldn't be asking questions to his boss's beloved but he can't help it. Baekhyun always try to talk with him even when he knows very well that taehyung is not interactive. He feels uneasy and he always pity this timid boy who's losing his everything. But everyone knows that the boss would go mad if it's not for the boy . This boy is keeping his boss alive and sane. And taehyung needs jungkook as much as jungkook needs him , which baekhyun understood clearly last night.

Taehyung stayed quiet for a while looking at nothing sitting on the mirror table . His fingers clutched around the glass tightly. He wasn't fine . He wasn't feeling okay.

''I-i don't know . I remember fainting-g and after sometime i-i felt as if i'm drowning badly. No one to save me.. i tired and tried but i couldn't -t until he came.'' He murmured the last part to himself. 

It felt as if i couldn't be saved....i was falling , falling depper into the sea , my eyes were half closed, hands still  upwards as if  someone could still grip them and save me from dying, from leaving this world. 

I had a lot to do, making more carrot cakes with his eomma , cycling with appa , dancing with jiminie ..and? .....HIM. 

I want to live please. j-jaebal. 

''You're okay tae '' 

I heard a voice calling me , the engulfing darkness suddenly started to fade away.

'' we're okay'' 

His voice. It's his voice.... It wasn't dark anymore. His hands gripped my fingers tight. His voice cocooned me. 

''i'm here my bun.. ''

''He's here"

''baby-y .. ''

He took me in his arms and I could breathe. His voice taking me away. He took me away from the deep sea. I wasn't drowning. 

''my Sweetheart ''

Taehyung couldn't complete his sentence as he sniffled , gulping away the lump formed in his throat. He doesn't want to talk about this to baekhyun anymore. But he wanted to ask baekhyun something.

'' ahh ..um..woo-bin hyung ..i mean the doctor who checked upon you last night said you were having a panic attack most probably in a nightmare form. I was so scared when i got his call..and it was even more scary seeing you like that. Thank god the call wasn't cut otherwise god knows'', Baekhyun rambled till a point where his eyes widened remembering something . He looked here and there and gulped .

''W-was he here? '' ...''was he here again last night?'' , Taehyung asked, he was confused . He frowned looking at baekhyun behaving differently all of a sudden. Something clicked his mind. 

''Call?'' ''whose phone call? ''

Baekhyun stayed quiet.

''I'm asking you something'' ..suddenly he was feeling angry over baekhyun . Why isn't baekhyun telling him if he was here last night again. 

When Taehyung fell unconscious , he saw from his blurry vision how jungkook took him to bed and covered him with the duvet. And went away, after kissing his lips...''you will always be mine sweetheart''. 

And he wanted to know, that's what he wanted to ask baekhyun if jungkook came back when taehyung had an attack. His heart was beating very loud against his chest. Just a moment before he didn't wanted to talk to baekhyun about this but suddenly what happened to him. He needed to know that, and he doesn't know why but he just did. 

''Tell me '' ..''tell me baekhyun'' taehyung demanded shakily, hands clutching his skirt . 

''Calm down . You are not well''

''I need to know'' ..''WHY WON'T YOU TELL ME ?!'' 

''Taehyu-

''pl-ease''

Baekhyun sighed. He looked at the shaking boy, eyes filled with tears breathing heavily. 

''NO'' 

Taehyung stopped breathing. 

''Boss didn't came back.''

Taehyung eyes left the tears that he has been trying to hold. His mind chanting only one thing..''he didn't came'' . Taehyung doesn't know why he's been so utterly disappointed and his heart dropped when he heard that jungkook wasn't here. His head hurt more thinking that the voice ....the voice which gave him comfort, the voice which taehyung clung onto , saved him from dying,  his voice , jungkook's voice was not real, it was his imagination all along. 

Baekhyun didn't know what to do. He looked at the boy in front of him. He needed to tell him, tell him that it was his boss , it was jungkook who stayed on the call , calmed him down till the boy could breathe normally, he needed to tell taehyung that jungkook could always see taehyung , his eyes were always on his beloved, looking, caring and soothing him . Through his voice, the small cctv which baekhyun planted inside taehyung's room is jungkook's eyes. And now also the boss could see them. Baekhyun knows he's not allowed, he shouldn't dare but his heart clenches seeing the male infront of him. He could bear the punishment his boss is about to give him after this deed , but he needed to tell taehyung.

And that's what he did . He sucked in air through his teeth and looked at the petite male .

This is for their own good, this is for these two souls which long for each other. He knows that beneath the layer of hatred in taehyung's eyes, the said male long for something....something which is jungkook. He's seen it.  As for the boss, behind that revengeful mind....which he's doing for his appa , Jeon Sr, he's more infuriated to be apart from taehyung..which is caused by Mr Kim...and that is why jungkook kept him here. 

Everyone knows that both the souls carve for each other. They need each other, their longing is for each other. And they are sane with each other. 

------------

HEY guys<3 ..i hope you liked it. i'm trying really hard uk...it is a intense story and it does need a push from you guys ....oh and about jungkook's questions ..it will be in next episode...please let me know if you liked it or not..i deserve some review atleast?..please vote, share and comment. Do not be a silent reader. ILY all..

THOUGHTS?

THANKING YOU:

NIKI