Darling, You'll Be Okay

Day 15

The day's flew by and I found myself spending most of my time with Riley. We were finally out on summer break. It was bittersweet, because it was out last summer as high school kids; Riley and I both knew it would be my last summer here. It was something that we never really talked about because we didn't want to except it's truth.

My mom started staying home more often, she knew that I really needed her right now. I hated it though, I didn't need anyone's pity. I could handle this on my own.

The good thing was mom and Ri got along pretty well and she wasn't opposed to him staying over. It wouldn't of mattered if she did. We haven't really been ones to follow the rules.

It was Friday and as usual, Riley and I were cuddled up on my couch. I had a thick blanket wrapped around me and I was paying attention to the TV show and Ri was scrolling through whatever on his phone, and his other arm wrapped around me.

"You should eat." He mumbled, locking his phone. He kissed the top of my head lightly and rested his chin on my head.

"I'm not really hungry." I groaned and stretched. I rested one of my arms over Riley's stomach and rubbed my eye with the other.

"Emma you need to eat. You're loosing weight again." He said sliding out from under me and walking to the kitchen.

"Riiiiiiiiley" my face was buried into a pillow.

I wrapped my blanket tightly around myself and walked into the kitchen. I found Riley rummaging through my refrigerator.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked walking over to my pantry and grabbing a half empty jar of Nutella. I scrunched my nose. That stuff is so nasty, I don't know how he eats it.

"Hmm, chicken Alfredo sounds good to me.." I said with a plain expression.

Riley walked over to drawer were we kept our eating utensils and pulled out a spoon, soon he was nose deep in the Nutella jar.

After eating most of what remained in the jar, he looked up to me.

"How does grilled cheese sound?" He said setting the spoon into the sink and putting what was left of the Nutella into the pantry.

I laughed and walked over to him.

"Sounds delicious, but you might want to get that Nutella off you chin first."

I wiped his chin with my thumb and got most of it off. He's a mess.

I leaned back against the counter and watch Ri as he got the butter, cheese, and bread out.

I turned on the stove and put a pan on top of the burner for him; he threw a small slice of butter into the pan to keep the bread from sticking.

He made us both grilled cheeses and we went back to our place on the couch.

Riley finished his and made me finish mine.

I really wasn't hungry but I know I needed to eat.

"How are you feeling?" He asked walking back from putting our plates away.

"I'm fine Riley, you don't have to baby sit me." I said slightly annoyed.

"I know I just worry about you because you haven't been eating and you know you ha-"

"I know Riley! I know dammit! I don't need a constant reminder I fucking know. Please stop bringing it up." I didn't realize I was yelling, but I didn't care.

"You act like this is something you can just not talk about. This is serious." He said lowly.

The last thing I remember was falling, or maybe floating. One of the two. But suddenly everything went black.

I felt cold again, but it wasn't the bad kind of cold. It was peaceful. I didn't know if I had died, if I was unconscious, or if I was just having a bad trip on something. I was okay with any of the three.

The only thing bad about this coldness was that I knew I was alone. Whenever I was I'm sure there was someone with me, but I couldn't communicate with them. I couldn't communicate with Riley.

Riley. I wonder what he's doing right now. Was he sitting beside me holding my hand willing me to wake up? Or had he finally realized that this wasn't a healthy relationship and moved on.

Why was I thinking about him? Well obviously he was the last person I saw, but why? What happened that made me pass out? Or whatever happened..

Am I dying?

*a/n I'm so sorry that this update was really boring, I promise things will pick up soon. But make sure you comment vote and let me know what you think!*