love or lies? (Tom Kaulitz)

Regret's..

It had been a few weeks since i had come home and i was getting much better.

Me,Liz and Soph decided we should all do secret santa and ask to go shopping to go buy the gifts.

We begged Tom and Bill. "fine but you have to stay with a body guard each cause we've got people after us at the minute." Tom sighs. I knew exactly why he sighed, he was worried what may happen if the other gang leader catches us and does the same as Mr Andrews. "thank you,thank you!." i smiled happy to finally get some me time.

We was getting ready in Liz and Bills room and i walked out to grab something from Toms room but as i walked to the door and i heard him on the phone to a woman?.
I moved closer to the door and listen to the phone call. "yeah, all the girls are going out so come over at around half two." i hear Tom say and i could tell he was smirking by the tone of his voice, that same smirky tone he would used with me that night we met.

"i'll see you in a bit then gorgeous." he added before i heard him end the call and walk towards the door. My body was stiff after hearing him on that call knowing he was talking to another woman and it made my blood boil. I quickly moved back a bit and ran downstairs "where are you going Yians?." he called out. "j-just to get some water." i lied. My plan was to go on the shopping trip then come home and see if it was really true. Because i was hopefully only overthinking. But i think i knew deep down what was truly happening.

We eventually left to go to the shopping centre and after we all went shopping and met back up Liz got a call from Bill that he was gonna come and pick us up since he was on his way back from a meeting anyways.

I started to help Sophie take her bags in since she got quite a lot then it came to the part i was dreading most.

I started to walk over to Toms room and i opened the door.

I was right. He was there in his room with the most beautiful girl i've ever seen. My heart instantly broke on the spot and i looked at him in disappointment. I knew it was coming but i just hoped he was better then that..

Toms Pov :
I looked up after hearing my door open.

And i saw her.
I had this horrible feeling in my chest, this horrible wash of guilt rained over me. I could see the pain in her eyes as she shook her head and walked away from my room.

I removed myself from the other woman and threw some baggy jeans i didn't even bother with a shirt i just needed to follow her and get her back.

I ran down the stairs and saw Bill and Liz sat on the sofa watching a movie. "Bill where the fuck is Yianna." i yelled in a panic as i put my shoes on "i don't know why?." Bill replied as his eyes widened after becoming more alert from my loud shout.

I opened the door and looked out onto the front porch and surely not...

I had seen her in my car and starting to drive away. "Bill you was right fucking here and you didn't fucking stop her."i scream at him in anger.

"keys, now." i say gesturing my hand at Bill. He throws me the keys and i catch them as i rush out the door and slam it behind me as i run to Bills car and throw myself in.

Yiannas Pov:
As i raced down the empty streets i felt this eruption of anger and rage eat every hint of calmness in me and i swerved the corners carelessly. "i don't get it why am i upset i don't love him and he doesn't love me..." I yell as angry tears form in my eyes "but why does this hurt so bad?.." i say chocking on a few tears as i drove through the city. The big lights shone and danced on Toms black car as i drove more recklessly. Where was i even going?.

Then it hit me.

"i'm free.." i whisper as a smile forms on my lips and my tears of anger slowly fade into tears of joy.

"i'm free! hahaha." i say happily as i continued driving as far away from Tom and the house as possible so he had no chances of finding me.

After what felt like hours of driving i finally stopped to take a little rest at the top of the most beautiful hill which viewed over the city. I sat down on the edge as i felt a weight getting lifted off my shoulder

But when i thought all was okay that weight came and pushed me back down as i saw Tom zoom up the hill in Bills dark red car. With pure anger in his eyes.

Fear was rising inside me as i quickly stood up and rushed to Toms car.

Bills car came to a screeching stop and i heard the door open and slam loudly shut as Toms heavy foot steps came closer.

"Fuck why won't this door open?." i shouts as a lump forms in my throat and my lip wobbles while i fumble with Toms car door.

I felt his rough hands grip me and swing me around.

He pushes me hard against the car "get it the car.." he mumbles stiffly as he then releases me a bit but still holds my arm.

I stand still and look down feeling like shit. I was so close to finally being free or finding zia,leah, and Maisie again.. I need to find some way to contact them..

Tom watches me confused with a pissed look mixed in wondering why im ignoring him.
"Now Yianna." he says firmly as he pushes me towards the door a bit but i still don't move.

I see the rage in his eyes get more passionate as he sighs then picks me up and throws me over his shoulder.

"Just let me go Tom you don't need me you have that other girl!." i shout as i hit his back but his grip gets tighter and he ignores me before he roughly throws me into the passenger seat of his car making me crash into the seat belt plug. I groan in pain but he rolls his eyes and gets in the other side.

The whole car ride home he ignores me. This is the second kind of anger where he ignores you. And trust me that is the worst one cause not only does he ignore you. He also randomly hits you.

But i didn't even care, i was still pissed at him so i don't get why he was in a hissy fit with me.

We soon got back home and we got out the car. Still not a word had been said. We was both being stubborn and ignoring each other.

"Go upstairs Yianna." Tom said coldly.

I didn't even have to hear him say it cause i was already heading towards the stairs but then i stopped in my tracks.

"Bill?." i turn around and see him and Liz still watching the movie from when i rushed out. "yeah?" he replied still with his eyes glued to the screen as he held Liz close and cuddled her. "where's all the spare duvet covers?." i ask. "the cupboard under the tumble dryer,why?." he replys. "I don't exactly want to sleep in that girl and Toms sweat." i say walking towards the cupboard.

Tom looks at me tense even though he's in the wrong but i ignore him,take the spare bed sheets and storm up stairs.

I change the bed stuff and get into some pyjamas and get comfy in the new covers.

I was still pissed at Tom so i fell asleep before i had to see his dumb face again but i already knew tomorrow we were gonna have a big argument about today..

Just by the way he was acting since we got home or how he got into bed that night.

Normally he would hold me or be close to me.

But that night he stayed far away cause we both knew if one of us was within 4 more centimetres of each other someone was gonna snap. But like i said i already know at some point it's gonna come up tomorrow but i didn't even care..