love or lies? (Tom Kaulitz)

grey skies

The next morning i woke up and i could already see the grey misty sky,

still on the complete other side of Toms bed and i could hear the wind howling. Today is not gonna be a good day.

I slowly stood up and started walking towards the bathroom. "where are you going Yianna." Toms cold voice mumbles in a sleepy tone. I roll my eyes and continue walking to the bathroom as i shut the door.

I was still pissed since yesterday, and he didn't even apologise. Not like that really surprised me though.

I slowly creeped back out of the bathroom and saw Tom wasn't in the bed anymore?. I sighed and just walked out his room.

I started walking downstairs and saw Bill and Liz sat down enjoying breakfast. That was always how i could tell Bill was different from the others, yeah he still acted all gang man and stuff but when he was with Liz he was different. Unlike the others you could see how much Bill adored Liz just by how he was around her or towards her, He never hit her or yelled at her or made her uncomfortable.Obviously he acted differently in front of Tom but the minute Tom would leave he would apologise. I wished me and Tom were like that but me and Amelia got it the worst with our boys.

"Morning Yianna." Liz says with a warm smile as Bill hugged her tightly from behind. "Morning..." i mumble back then i laugh cause my voice croaks. Bill and Liz laugh as well then i see Sophie and Georg walk through the front door. "hey guys lovely morning!." Sophie says in her cheerful lively voice. And Georg walks over to Bill and they start talking.

"Gustav and Amelia are still asleep i think." Liz says sipping some juice while Bill still hugs her. "okay,gosh it's a bit cold." i smile as i rub my shoulders to keep them warm.

Then after we was all talking for at least 20 minutes Tom storms into the kitchen from the garage where his car goes when he adds more features to it. Tom would only ever do this if he was annoyed or wanted his car to be better for a big race in this case it was annoyed, and i knew why.

"go get dressed girls we've got an important day." Bill says quickly moving away from Liz as Tom walks in.

I walk off up towards Toms room but i feel someone quickly following me up the stairs. I keep walking straight and don't turn around cause i thought it was just Gustav walking to his room since his is closest to Toms but then i get suddenly pushed harshly against the wall.

"What the fu- Tom what are you doing?." i sigh of relief when i see it's just Tom but i still give him a look of annoyance.

"we still need to talk about last night Yianna." he said as he pulled me by wrist into the room.

Another way i knew if he was annoyed at me is he would call me Yianna but when he was happy he would call me Yians.

I sigh and sit on the bed. " i don't understand why your so annoyed Tom your the one who slept with another girl." i say in a pissy tone. "You see that's where your wrong. I don't see why your annoyed i'm sleeping with other girls if you hate me so much Yianna?." he reply's and stands in front of me. I don't have a clue how to respond then i mumble "who was she?.." "hm? what was that?." he answers trying to wind me up even more. I stand up and roll my eyes while i mumble words too myself.

"Where are you going Yianna?. We still have a lot to talk about cause that was a wild stunt you pulled yesterday." he says as he gets up and follows me to where all my clothes are. I start picking clothes then say "Tom why does it matter? just do what you want i'm done... i don't care what you do anymore.." "am i suppose to feel bad for that little poor me sentence?. Other girls would kill to be in this position." he follows me again. "Then go get another girl!." i yell as i slam a draw shut. "Don't you dare fucking tell me what to do Yianna your already lucky with how patient i am with you and your dumb little tricks." he yells back as he gets closer. Tom pins me against the bedroom wall " You still haven't answered me... he says calmly then he shouts in my ear Why do you fucking care Yianna?! i sleep with that girl every once in a while not that it matters cause you hate me right?. So why do you fucking care so fucking much Yianna? hm?." i could tell he was getting angry then he added "You never fucking sleep with me anyways or show love or anything towards me and obviously i'm only human i need that kinda stuff in life Yianna!." he yells louder as he pushes me into the wall harder.

Tears form in my eyes because we both know the reason why i cared so much but we also both knew i would never admit it.

I calm myself down a bit then i whisper "you make me sick Tom..."