The Auditions

Goddamn it why did I ever agree to this, I glare at my subconscious who is smirking at me with glee. Damn you Dakota Johnson why do you make stupid decisions like this without thinking them through.

It's Thursday morning and I've received a call from Michelle today. Sam Taylor has asked her to find a character for an open role for the movie Fifty Shades Of Grey. Naturally I agreed to meet them and audition for the role. Well that's until I read the first few chapters and realised I'll be having to get naked with some hottie. Sam, the director of the movie already confirmed who my co-star was going to be. And of course I'm living under a rock because I've never heard of Jamie Dornan. So I get to googling him. He's beautiful! And married.... With a daughter, too. I know I shouldn't pursue this any longer. I can never keep my emotions in tact. Especially when I'll be filming steamy sex scenes with this Adonis for 3 years. I should just back out now, I have a few movies coming up soon. I could easily find my break through role through one of them. "Let's face it Dakota. You'll always be the random girl who passes by in one scene. This movie is your breakthrough." My subconscious glares at me. Arghhhh why can't I just stop overthinking. This will be ok! I'm sure it will. Just keep your eyes on the prize D and don't focus on this goddess you'll be filming with.

My appointments at 4:35pm It's only 8:19am now, but I better leave real soon if I wanna fly out to LA and make it in time for the auditions. I get to packing and by 9:00am I've already had my PA book me the next flight out to LA and a hotel for a few nights.

I was really nervous at first but as my driver pulls up outside NY airport I start to relax. This could be good for me, I'm actually getting excited. I can just imagine the publicity after playing Anastasia Steele. I mean I'm not so bad now but no one really notices the actress who appears on 21 Jump Street for like 5 minutes, doesn't even talk and then disappears. This role is exactly what I need. This role can open to many doors for me but I don't know what my parents will think. MY PARENTS! I haven't even thought about this before accepting this offer. HOW STUPID CAN I BE! I'm going to appear naked on worldwide television and I haven't even consulted my mom. Now I'm panicking all over again. But hey, I guess my mom will be more understanding then dad. She's had her fair share of roles. Maybe I'm just overthinking, this is just acting. It's work, surely they will understand that? Just as I begin to relax again another mortifying thought crosses my mind. My brothers! What will they think? And what will their friends think? I don't want my brothers ogling me while I'm naked on television, and certainly not their friends!

I'm startled awake by a flight attendant "Ma'am, the flight is due to land shortly please push your seat forward and buckle up."

As I make my way to the car waiting outside the terminal car park I'm greeted by a few fans who want autographs and photos. I jump into the car double speed, I'm just too tired for this shit. I've just been on a 5 hour flight I have less then 45 minutes to get back to the hotel change and and meet the writer and producer and prep for auditions.

As I arrive at Universal Studios I'm greeted by a young lady impeccably dressed in a black suit. "Miss Johnson, Sam Taylor" she says and extends a hand. I take it too willing, excitement running through me. I can't believe this is happening. She sweeps me into a bear hug. "I'm delighted to meet you sweetheart. Your perfect for the role I'm sure you'll have no trouble at all with the auditions. You're just as I would picture Anastasia Steele." This boosts my confidence a little, I'm sure I'll do fine. The producer has just reassured me she's thinks I'm fit for the job and has no doubt I'll do well.

We make our way through a long corridor and into suite 219 where I'm introduced to Erika James the author and her husband Neil. I'm briefed on what the requirements are and we begin a thorough discussion about the movie.

The next morning is Friday, I receive a call at 11:22am from Sam, they'd like me to go back in for further auditioning. I'm only too willing to oblige. Despite my fears yesterday's I've had a change of mind after I met Erika and Sam. I've began reading the books and it seems these stories are worldwide phenomenon with over a million fans. I can see the publicity running my way already!

I quickly shower and prep for the further auditions and make my way back to the studio. After a few hours of rehearsing I'm called into an office a few rooms down from the auditioning suite. "Congratulations Miss Johnson, the role is yours." I'm swept into a hug by first Sam and then Erika and another young lady. Mine? THE ROLE IS MINE! I'm beyond ecstatic but at this point I just wanna go back to the hotel room and sleep. I'm expected back tomorrow to meet Jamie, my co star. Yes the beautiful impeccable Jamie Dornan aka Christian grey. The man I will get naked with. Gosh how am I ever going to deal with that! I almost never have to fake my feelings I always get too invested in co stars, and then I start to remember The Five Year Engagement. Yes I developed a crush on Jason Segal too.

I wake to the 5am radio alarm, order myself a quick coffee and head to the hotel gym for a workout before my appointment at the studio at 9am. I pick at my breakfast because truth be told I'm nervous... So nervous about meeting Dornan. He's hot, I mean really hot and getting naked and putting on my best orgasm face in front of him is going to be mortifying. I hope they don't make me do any of that crap today.

I arrive at the studio at 9am and make my way to the very familiar suite now. And there is an impeccably dressed BEAUTIFUL man standing there. Yep that must be Jamie. I hope I don't go all goofy on him. My best friend Ruby always teases me about getting goofy around guys I like. I need to relax and stop thinking about this. I push my thoughts about Jamie to the back of my head take a deep breath and introduce myself.