The Auditions

Chapter 2

"Christian Grey" he says & extends a hand introducing himself and smirks at me as if being sarcastic. I laugh, "Um, hi Jamie. Sam's told me so much about you it's good to finally meet you." Shit, I have to distract myself from his charm and sense of humour. I only just met him and he's already got me squirming.

We are in a deep discussion with Sam and Erica about the filming. I'm relived they've reassured us filming will commence in a few weeks but we won't be doing any of the sex scenes until the end so we can have some time to get to know each other better. At this stage I just wanna run for the hills, it's all becoming a reality and I'm starting to regret this again. I know what will happen, I'll embarrass myself. I can't keep my emotions in check, this guy is hot! Too hot that he has me blushing just by thinking about him. Damn it Dakota just shut up my subconscious snares at me. She's right, I must stop over thinking. Before he sees right through me and knows what I'm thinking about.

We are summoned by Sam to go grab lunch together and spend the rest of the day getting to know one another so we can be comfortable enough when the filming starts. "So what would you like to eat." He asks. "Oh um, I don't mind. Whatever you'd like."
He rises an eyebrow at me and looks bemused. He can tell I'm shy. Damn damn damn! I smile and start a conversation about my dog to distract him while he leads me to the Starbucks a block away. "What you having?" :He asks. "Sweet green iced tea please"
He sits down opposite me with our orders a few moments later and smiles at me. "So have you done much movies like this before" hah! Cutting straight to the chase. "No, this would be my first. You know, I had no idea there was even sex  in this book when I auditioned. Then when I was drafted I thought what the fuck did I get myself into." He bursts out laughing and soon we are both laughing. "What about you, you done anything like this before?" I ask. And I'm secretly hoping to god he is as inexperienced as me in these types of movies. "No, I mean I've starred in movies with sex scenes here and there but nothing this intense. My wife read the books and was rereading the sex scenes to me. I was shocked and how detailed they were" he chuckles as he finishes the sentence. Hmm, I don't know why but I see red whenever he mentions his wife. It's like I'm jealous. 'Girl you just met the guy, shut up you creep' my subconscious snares at me. Haha what the heck am I thinking she's right.

We finish our drinks and meal and he walks me back to the car where my driver is waiting and a few fans approach me for autographs. We say our goodbyes and he's off. Phew! That went better then expected. We'll be rehearsing the scenes all week then flying out to Vancouver in a fortnight.

The fortnight passes by and I've seen Jamie every single day in the past 2 weeks. I'm okay around him now, I mean its still awkward when he mentions his wife but that's all good. I just keep thinking to myself is his wife really okay with this? She won't be ogling me at the premieres or anything would she? I'm kind of nervous to meet her, and so I should be. I'm going to be laying naked underneath her husband God knows how many times.

We're on a jet heading to Vancouver and I'm seated opposite Jamie. I wanna close my eyes and fall asleep, I'm so tired but it's difficult when I know this sexy man will be staring at me as soon as I fall asleep. And I talk in my sleep. No way I can't sleep I giggle to myself. "Something funny?" He asks. "Uh um, no no just a thought" "what thought, I'd like to laugh too" He asks rising an eyebrow at me. "That I shouldn't fall sleep because I snore" I try to distract him. He laughs and asks me if I'm in a relationship. What... Matt and I aren't serious, I decide not to mention him. "No. Single to mingle" I respond and he looks at me as if he's confused. "Joking." I say immediately "I don't mingle, that was a poor joke" he laughs as if relieved. Did he think I was flirting with him? As if! Was that an inappropriate joke?

I get up and walk to the bathroom. I couldn't get out of there any faster. I wash my face and try to regain my equilibrium, and then head back to my seat and let myself go. I fall asleep and wake up to Jamie slightly squeezing my hand. "We've landed, you were knocked out for a while" he smiles sweetly.

We make our way to the exit of the airport and more fans are there to greet us, the girls are hovered around Jamie and I'm feeling a little embarrassed that there's very little fans focussed on me. A few seconds later our driver pulls up and we get into the car and away from the annoying paparazzi and fans. In the car he asks me if I'm ok. "I'm fine, just tired" I reply. "It gets tiring doesn't it! So have you ever been to Canada?" He asks. "I've passed through a few times, short stays. You know.. But I haven't really had much time to admire it so I'm really excited this time. Looks like we'll be here for a while." He's fiddling with his fingers and he seems uncomfortable but he's trying too hard to keep a conversation going, his discomfort is obvious. As we are talking about where we've travelled to his phone rings and he goes into a conversation about a flu, teething and then mentions his daughters name. Yes I've done some Google stalking, and his daughter is super cute! I assume he's talking to his wife.

We arrive at the first filming location and we are drafted on what we will be doing and we are then behind the cameras filming. We start off at GEH a gigantic skyscraper looking over all of Seattle. The day goes by extremely slowly as we are told to repeat the scenes over a dozen times. Finally we can leave, and to my shock Jamie and I are staying at the same hotel. But of course I only discover this later that night when I head down to the buffet for dinner, and there he is seated with his wife. What! His wife? I didn't know his wife was here, when did she get here? It's too obvious if I ignore them and my only option is to head over and say hello since Jamie has spotted me and smiled from across the room. I smile back, finish filling my plate and head over to say hello. Amelia seems uncomfortable but she extends a hand and kisses both my cheeks, returning to gesture I turn to leave but Jamie insists I join them. Dinner is an absolute nightmare, I'm sitting with Jamie and his wife, who will most probably be thinking of what I'll be doing with her husband in the next few weeks, the thought is appalling and I just want to get up and run away. The three of us are silent, to the point you can here our chewing while eating our dinner. Thankfully my phone rings at the beginning of an awkward conversation about past experiences in acting. I apologise and head towards to restrooms. "Matt!! Thank god you called." "Are you okay Dee?" He asks. "I'm just great, I'm forced to break bread with Jamie and his wife and it's been so awkward. How are you? Miss me?" "I'm good, I wanted to talk to you urgently Dee it's important just give me a call back when you're alone." I hang up and head back to the table and apologise that I must leave. I'm still hungry but I'll just have to order room service. As soon as I get back to my room I call Matthew. "Matt what's up? what did you wanna talk about I'm alone now. You got me worried"he sighs on the other end of the phone. "Dee I'm heading back to London for a few weeks, maybe even months and you've just started this new movie and it's all complicated, we'll both be so busy, maybe we should take a break? I can't do with all this craziness with your new movie and you know everyone back home is talking about you." My heart sinks. I feel heart broken, I know I didn't think we were serious but hearing him say those words to me has just absolutely shattered me. "People are talking? That's what you are afraid of! People talking. It's not about going to London and you know it, you know what just fuck off and leave me alone." I hang up and my tears start flowing and soon I'm sobbing like a child, we were never serious but why do I feel like I'm at such a loss? I get into bed and sob, I'm sobbing away when there's a knock on the door. "Who?!" I ask. "It's me." I hear a familiar voice, wipe my tears away, trying to look okay and I open the door. It's Jamie, at my door! "That was awkward for you wasn't it,wait. Dakota are you okay?" I nod, "Yes, just tired. Did you need something?" "Uh um I just wanted to apologies for dinner I know it was a little strange given the circumstances." He says and chuckles a little. "It's okay." I reply dryly. He puts both his hands on my shoulders "Hey Dakota seriously are you okay?" And I break down into tears almost not being able to stand on my feet. He carries me and deposits me on the bed and for a moment he looked like he was about to sit down and talk to me but he refrains and says "You've had a long day get some rest you'll feel better tomorrow" and he leaves with that, shutting the door behind him. Maybe he thought he had crossed the line, I could've used a shoulder to cry on Jamie, I think to myself as I drift off into an exhausted sleep.