The Auditions

Chapter 5

It's day number 4 of filming and the day is going by so slowly, 5pm hits and i cannot wait to get out of there. I'm a mess, my emotions are all over the place and I do not know what to do about this new found attraction, I know deep down inside I want it but the right thing would be to not pursue it any further, or we will cause more harm then good and someone will end up hurt, and we aren't even thinking about Jamie's child. I know what cheating does to a family, my parents cheated on each other. Although I love them both it really did screw me up and maybe that's why I've just made the same mistake my parents did. I don't want to be "the other women" I need to end this, now!

I'm in my hotel room when there's a knock on the door, it's Jamie. He looks gorgeous, standing there at my door dressed up in a suit, messes up hair and that infectious heart melting smile. Mmm I could just throw myself at him now, I want him so badly. But I can't have him, I push my thoughts away. "Jamie, what's up?" I ask. He smirks at me, "I miss you" he walks in and closes the door behind him. "You don't know how much I've missed you today, seeing you there in front of me and not being able to do what I wanted to do to you." He puts his hand around my behind and pushes me to him, "it's a good think we are staying at the same hotel" he smirks, oh fuck it. My lips are on his, fast and hard and I want him, now. I need him, I've had a shitty and this is all that makes sense to me, us, what a magical combination "us" he responds pushing his tongue into my mouth and I allow him access and he pushes me up against the wall. I pull away breathless, "No", I pant. What am I doing, I can't. This is going no where, we can't continue this! "Jamie we can't do this, we just can't, I what's the point if we can't be together, you and Amelia and Dulcie are a family, I can't destroy that. I can't let you do to your wife what my dad did to my mum, it's" "shhhhh" he cuts me off and kisses me once again, "I need you" he whispers as he bites my ear lobe and kisses my neck. "No" I say, pulling away from him. He stops and takes a deep breath looking wounded and exasperated. "Goodnight Dakota" he says and walks out.

I throw myself on to the bed and take a deep breath, how can I fix this... My phone rings, it's a private number I don't usually answer private numbers but I answer this one. "Hello" I say "Dakota, it's Jesse" yes! "Jesse! I've missed you so much thank god you called you're the only person in the world I can speak to big bro" I say, excited to hear his voice. "What's up little sis" he says "Don't judge I know this is crazy but I kinda hooked up with one of the co stars, i don't wanna say who but this guy is married with a kid and I like him so much, more than just like him. And he feels the same way, but what do I do? I can't do it again it can't continue, I feel like a terrible person I can't believe I let it go so far out of control and crossed the boundaries" my brother is shocked, "is there a chance he'll leave his wife?" "WHAT! NOOOO! Jesse why would you say that, I don't want to be the other women, I can't be with him but I don't know how to put my feelings asides and keep our relationship professional" Jesse sighs "look I know who you're talking about its that Doran guy and what did you expects when you took this role, but why haven't you mentioned Matt in all of this, you basically cheated on him." "Well that prick broke up with me last week." "Oh Dee I'm sorry. Can you take time off? Come stay here a while even if it's just a week, clear your head so you know what's you need to do, plus I miss my baby sister" he says, "sands like a plan, let me arrange everything and I'll fly out tonight, see you soon."

I pick up my phone and call my PA, "Book me a flight out to Colorado ASAP" I say, "Sure, anything else?" "No" and I hand up. I call same and explain something personal has come up and I would need to leave Vancouver for a week or so. She accepts and says she and the cast will work on the scenes that I am not in while I'm away. I pack my essentials and head to the airport and soon I am landing in Colorado. "Jesse!" I scream out as I spot my brother near the car outside and run into his open arms. I've missed him so much, he is my best friend and has always been here for me when I need him. I'll get to see mom and dad too, it's a good thing they all live in aspen.