The Auditions

Chapter 6

I wake with a jolt and the beautiful Jamie is wrapped around me like ivy. He's dressed in his boxers and white shirt, when did he get undressed?
I lay there looking at him, drinking him in. I love this man, and he loves me too. He's made me admit it before I could have registered it myself, and I didn't know this is how he left about me. I don't feel well, I was so stressed about this love affair and the shock of last night was too much. He shocked me, my confession shocked me! I love this man, I have gotten to know him very well in the past weeks of filming, he is sweet and gentle and caring, and he cares for me. He loves me! Who would've guessed this is where we'd be. I have never felt this way about anyone in my life. No one is as special as him, perhaps it's his sweet and tender love making, the way he talks to me, the sweet and gentle compliments he gives me, the words he says, the way he looks at me. I kiss his beautiful face and he wakes, smiling at me he plants a soft wet kiss on my lips "good morning beautiful" he says stroking my hair off my face and holding me tightly, "good morning" I respond "how are you feeling?" "Fine" I smile at him and before I know it I'm underneath him, trapped, unable to move. "Breakfast time" he smirks pushing his pelvis down to grind on me. I feel his erection, ohhhh it feels so good! And I push my pelvis up to meet him, before I know it his boxers are off and he is sliding on a condom and slowly, sweetly he enters me. "Ah" I moan. He kisses me hard, absorbing my moans and gently makes love to me, in and out, in and out and again, the rhythm is torturous and I'm wound so tight craving release "ah please" I moan. "Please what" he says through gritted teeth, "faster, faster please" I can no longer take this slow torturing rhythm but he continues pulling out and sliding back in, so slowly. I try to buck him, to speed up but his hands travel down to my legs, holding them in place, one hand one my waste and other holding my leg. "Slowly, let's take it slow" he moans as he gently makes love to me, he plants soft wet kisses on my lips and he is moving in and out and I am building, higher, I can feel it I am about to come. "Come for me, now" he says with one sharp thrust and on call I let go exploding around him as I scream out his name and he follows wetly emptying himself inside me as he kisses my lips and calls out my name. After a beat he collapses beside me and we are both panting, steadying our breath after our intense sex.

"I've missed you" he kisses me and I wrap my arms around him, my head on his chest, listening to the steady sound of his heart beat. We stay like that for hours, neither of us moving, embracing each other. After a while he's out of bed and getting dressed, "since filming has been cancelled today what would you like to do miss Johnson?" He asks. I'd like to do many things I think to myself, the sad reality is he isn't mine to do anything with. We cannot go out, we can't have dinner together, we cannot go on dates, walks, or even be seen together outside of filming ours. The only time we will ever have together is in the bedroom, the though saddens me but it's the truth... I shake my head, "nothing" I respond dryly and his face drops. "What is it Dakota?" He asks worried, "It's just.... We can't do anything. I'm only useful to you in the bedroom, we can't go anywhere. We," I stop. "You aren't mine" i add sadly. He moves towards the bed and sits beside me, "hey" he strokes my cheek and wipes away a stray tear. "I know, I know we can't do any of that." He pauses and then adds after a beat, "I love you." so sincerely and tenderly and I have absolutely no doubt in his words, he loves me, he is trying to sooth, trying so hard to please me but the thought of coming second with him saddens me, he will be going back to his wife, sleeping next to her and what about me. I've invested too much in this relationship, I've jumped too deep into it and my emotions are all over the place, I love this man so much. I push these thoughts to the back of my head, I don't want to ruin this precious moment we are having, "Sorry" I say quietly. He places his hand behind my neck and kisses me gently "I love you too" I say after a while, he smiles stands and walks into the bathroom. He's having a shower when inspiration strikes, I've been an emotional wreck, I've left him and flown to Colorado without even a word, I've been distant and cold and he is trying so hard. I slip off my skirt and shirt and walk into the bathroom, slip into the shower and wrap my arms around him and he holds both my hands and kisses my knuckles "I missed you too" I say to him and he relaxes in front of me. He squirts some soap on to a cloth and begins to wash me, my neck, my breasts, my stomach and down to my sex, he rubs tentatively causing me to moan loudly. He repeats the rhythm over and over and before I register what I am doing I take the cloth from him drop it on the floor and kiss him hard, his hands are on my backside and my hands are around his neck I lift myself and wrap my legs around him and he holds me tightly lifting me he positions himself at the entrance of my sex and slams into me. "Ah" I moan and he repeats over and over sliding out and slamming into me again, my nipples are in his mouth and he bites down on them causing me to moan louder and louder "Ahhhh" "please Jamie" I scream and he pounds on harder until I let go and come apart at the seams and soo he follows with a few more thrusts. We are dazed on the floor of the shower. I squirt some soap onto a cloth and wash him, his back, his stomach, his penis and he takes the cloth and finished washing me.

He wraps himself around the water in a towel and wraps me in a towel and begins to dry my hair, once he is satisfied he walks me back to the bedroom. "We can do whatever you want today Dakota. We can disguise ourself and watch a movie, go for a walk, we can even stay in. Watch movies all day, make love" he smirks at me. "You name it." He adds. "So what shall it be" he asks. "Someone will see, we can't risk that." "It can ruin your family, your career Jamie. I don't want to risk that" I say, dreading the thought of any harm coming to Jamie. "Baby, I know you are scared" he stops and holds my hand "we can go downstairs, have breakfast there, and then I know a nice beach we can go to." I look at him, confused. "It's winter Jamie" I respond to his silly suggestion. "Exactly! Who will be there but us? We can go for a walk, talk, do whatever we want" mmmm not a bad idea.