✧ | HEALING TRAUMA

03. 15. 23 Su

(TW: Pills, passing anniversary and break downs)

03. 15. 23

The room felt heavy during the ceremony, something Su has grown to know all too well. Su tried his hardest to stay up during the ceremony since last night the members had to do a fansigning and a fanmeet the same day. His aunt comes up to him and hugs him, shaking him out of his thoughts. He looks at her kinda confused but knew she was pulling some bullshit.

"You need to talk to your cousins." She whispered to him with doe eyes, Su blinks a few times before shaking his head. "You're absolutely hilarious."

She was ready to hit him but puts her hand down slowly,
"You know they miss you Insu. Don't think you're always the black sheep in the family."

Su felt like he was speaking to a brick wall. Sighing lightly at the thought of actually talking to them.
"Do I really need to meet up with them?"

She plastered up a fake smile that he grown used to and replied,
"Yes. It's your grandfather's anniversary you have to."

Insu had a wonderful relationship with his grandfather. He wouldn't want to disappoint nor disrespect him in anyway but he definitely was mentally kicking himself for it.

"Fine..."

Su goes up to his cousin Beongyu with a weak smile,
"Hey Beongyu, how's everything going?"

Beongyu turns away with a soft but powerful smile,
"Hey hyung! I've been doing good just taking care of grandma and auntie. How are you?"

Insu fidgets with his hands a bit before responding trying to keep his mind focus on the conversation at hand.
"Trying to do better... um. How's the group?"

"They're doing much better since we went to another company."
Insu added,
"Oh! And Youngsoo asked about you though."

Beongyu raises an eyebrow at him, "Huh? Why?" as his tone grows higher than usual. Su shrugs a bit, "I don't know, you know sometimes he can be a bit mysterious with it."

He chuckles a bit with a bit of confusion in his tone. Su sighs a bit before asking,

"How's grandma?" He asked glancing over at her at the table mingling with some guest and seeing that sparkle in her eyes. Something he hasn't seen in years since her husband's passing.

"She's been... interesting... after she got his inheritance she's been pretty happy? I don't even know how to even explain it." Su tries to listen but he had to walk away before his anger start to bubble over causing him to walk out of the building.

"Insu!? Where are you going?" Beongyu called out following after him. Stopping a few feet from him sitting on the ground with his hands in his face. Getting closer to Insu, he can hear him mumbling to himself.

'Why am I here.'

'They always throw me to the side.'

'Mom, why did you leave.'

'You should have took me with you.'

Beongyu mouth just in stillness, knew that he was breaking down. He snapped out of his shock and hurried to his side putting his arm around him.
"Insu, if you can hear me squeeze my hand."

He puts his hands near Insu as he reached out and squeezed them. "Good job hyung. I'm here for you, I'm always here for you."

Insu hugs Beongyu tightly smothering his face into Beongyu's chest letting go of his frustration. But he can feel something clawing at him wanting to be released. He starts to listen to what Beongyu was talking about trying to help his focus on him.

"Do you want to go back to my apartment or yours to talk out everything?" Beongyu asked slowly making sure he can help his hyung the best of his ability even though he might not know what he's going through. He knows how it feels to be alone in your head for too long.

"My apartment..." Su pleaded with Beongyu and he obliged, having him stand on his feet and wrapping one arm around his waist to make sure that he was stable before they started walking.

Their aunt sees them walking away from the building and she goes outside to stop them. She asked,

" where are you too g-"

" don't worry about it he was feeling sick and I wanted to take him home. Don't worry about me. Just take grandmom home all right." Beongyu snapped at her before turning away leaving her confused but angry at the pair.

After they got to Su's apartment. He sits him down on the couch. Thinking about what happened and what could have possibly causes him to have a meltdown.

Beongyu goes into the kitchen, "Hey do you want something to eat or something to drink?" At first Su didn't respond to him like he was thinking, but his eyes wasn't looking anywhere just in one spot.

He finally opened his mouth and spit out the word, "No." Beongyu turned around to face Su tilting his heads ever so slightly since his tone and voice was different from when they was talking at their grandfather's anniversary. He goes up to Su slowly, sitting down next to him.

"Hyung something seems off with you. Are you okay?" Su doesn't say anything before laying down resting his head on Beongyu's lap.

Hyung?" Beongyu asked again but still silence until he hears a soft sound coming from Su. He looks down to see that he's peaceful and calm. At first, he wanted to wake Su up but refrain from doing it and gets up slowly from his position.

As Beongyu was making some food, in the corner of his eye he sees a pill bottle on the side table. Being a bit noisy, he grabs it and starts to read it.

Kim Insu,
125mg Depakote Sprinkles

Take one a day, may be swallowed whole or sprinkled over soft food.

If you have any questions, contact your healthcare provider or pharmacist. Keep all of your healthcare provider's appointments as scheduled.

Beongyu decides to grab his phone and does some research on the pill as the food finishes cooking.

Su slowly wake up from his slumber stretching. Trying to figure out how he got home until he looks up seeing Beongyu reading something on his phone sitting in the dining room.

Beongyu looks up at his phone with a soft but warm smile. "Hey Insu... Are you alright?" Su sits there nods weakly getting up from the couch walking towards the table. He looks down at the table seeing a plate full of food, he sits down and smiles softly look up at Beongyu.

"Did you take your meds today hyung?" Beongyu asked before Insu bites into his food and sighs.

"What do you want to know?"

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I know I know. "Girl... we going into the messy parts."
Absolutely. But that's Healing Trauma! Anyways, I hope you enjoy and if you want more info on the boys it's on my writing tumblr: cybermini.