so you think your a man

before you judge

If what is written in this book hits a trigger go work on that please for the sake of yourself and your relationships
If it doesn't and you are already a grown man then hope you were able to have a laugh at how some guys are still acting like little boys in their 30s

Guess 30 is the new midlife crisis age for boys oppps I mean men

Yes I am a female writing advice for men But Before you judge me too harshly for how I think a man should be over a boy
Keep in mind my dad raised me more than my mother
But to be honest neither was actually there as much as they should of been so I grew up in alot of areas alot fast than I should of
And Ive primarily been a single mother to my son who will be a adult himself soon, so scary to think of that

My dad had too technically teach me to protect myself and how too fight
How to use weapons incase I ever needed that skill, because I did need it in the end
How to hunt and ride motor bikes
How to do basic fixes on cars, trucks and other machines
I continued training in many other areas after leaving home, done a bit of boxing and other fighting training
Some self trained

And my dad was one of those men that thought a woman only belonged in the kitchen before I started putting him in his place about the fact that woman can do everything a man can do sometimes better than the man but it also doesn't mean we should have too

My poppa and other elderly men told me about how life used to be
Always loved listening to their stories
About Respecting your elders

My poppa and my nanna are where my love for nature comes from
And as far as relationships goes they were probably the main role models I had
My poppa was always a wise one and my main mentor even after he passed I still feel like his been helping guide me in some areas at least

Also have 4 older brothers that used to torment the crap out of me as most older brothers do
Tried to say they did that too make me stronger when I got older
Ha well bet they don't like what they turned me into with that shit
They probably seen me as a annoying spoilt little brat but you get that

Being a single mum for a while I'm so glad I had the other influences I had growing up
In some areas my mum wasn't the best role model, I know she did what she could but there are alot of areas she really could of done alot better
So my role model in this area was actually my best friends mum, she held down more than one job while keeping that house maintained, kids fed well and took others into her home when they needed a place to stay
Sometimes even needing to get us older kids to watch the younger one because she needed to go to work
I know at least one of her kids sees (hopefully seen these days) her as a narcissistic parent, alot of kids would of expecially with the generation we grew up in
But if you take a step back and look at what the situation actually was they were in while raising you that is when you can tell if they were or just doing the best they could with what hands they got dealt in life

And well for the last couple of years to put it in probably the nicest way I can
I had too fill the masculine role
When he tried to take over he turned into a player which is no man in my eyes thats a boy in a man's body
All you men out there that get triggered by this book can thank the guy that should of been filling the masculine role within our relationship
If he didn't see it as competition and me looking elsewhere when I was just trying to get my confidence back and feel more feminine again this book would of never come out
And I would of ended up down a very difference path I was dancing, modelling and going up on stage doing burlesque for a bit there but here we are
Hell same for the narcissist worse nightmare but with that you can also thank everyone else that go involved in the cunts plans, my cousin that came to an event (triggering me) and my mother as far as I know for inviting him
The narcissists worse nightmare part 2 will be happening as well thanks too well everyone that has been narcissistic in any way in my life

Seriously should of left me alone
The next trigger goes off I'll probably snap a set fire to sometime or go shoot some stuff
So I've been trying to make it so there are no triggers left
Or man kind might be in trouble

As I keep hearing
The goddesses of love and war are not happy with the world of man
The goddess of war wants you all too pay for your crimes that have gone unpunished
The goddess of love wants the women of earth to feel safe