i know a girl in touch with her feelings.
some might say she's too in touch,
but i think it's just right.
i know a girl raised in the sunshine
and winters of north carolina,
a girl who looks back on her past
with a reminiscent longing
and hopeful gaze to the future.
i know a girl who hears country music,
and thinks of when she would rock out
with her dad in his teal blue truck.
i know a girl who sings loudly to zac brown
and who marches in protests against
the injustices of this world.
i know a girl who doesn't know herself,
who thinks she is less than, not worthy of,
who thinks everyone around her
means something more.
i know a girl who forgets all she
fought through to just be alive.
i know a girl who misses a home
that was far from perfect,
but it was one of the first homes she knew.
i know a girl who is trying not cry writing this,
because she misses her old life,
because her new life is terrifying.
i know a north carolina girl
that moved to california,
but no matter how much she tries to
be "cool" and "forward" and "independent",
she will always long for home.
and i know that does not make
her any less of who she is,
that just means she remembers
the land that raised her.
i know a girl who gets emotional
during wine nights,
because she starts thinking
about her loneliness,
and i know a girl who has
started embracing that.
i know a girl who is in tune
with her loneliness,
and sometimes, it is quite scary.
i know a girl who struggles to see the future
as others do, but she wants to.
i see a girl who has struggled with her past
while braving her present.
i see a girl who has struggled
reconciling who she is now with
who she always has been.
i see a girl doing her fucking best,
and praying it's enough,
because if she can just survive this week,
maybe all will be okay.
i see a girl who has not fully grown up,
and she turns to therapy,
because she knows some things,
but not others.
i know a girl who does not fully know herself,
but oh god, she's trying,
and isn't that enough? for now?
i know a girl who sees the world
and doesn't think she deserves it.
i know a girl who sees the universe,
and can speak to life itself,
yet she thinks badly of herself.
i know a girl who knows she deserves love,
but she can never seem to believe it.
i know me.
isn't that the hardest?
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when you sleep, dream of the stars for me | dark poetry
Poesia"i still taste blood on my tongue when i think of their names, the way their hands ravaged you, your body, your very soul. they left scars that will always bleed, no matter how many bandaids i put over them." x x x a dark poetry collection containi...
