𝐭𝐡e 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 - 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐨

2-panic attack

irl+messages
⚠️SH AND PANIC ATTACK WARNING ⚠️
friday, august 21st

(maddies pov)

it was finally friday, almost the end of the week. everyone has been coming up to me asking about my brothers and saying so much shit to me about how I don't don't deserve them. which is crazy but i can't ignore it, my anxiety has got crazy because of it, I even have cut my self a couple times down my arm (I'll get into it later in the chapter) this morning i did my normal routine. i got up, picked an outfit out, which was sweatpants and a hoodie to cover my cuts. i ate breakfast, and got ready and now moms taking me to school.

"are you excited for school today honey?" i heard my mom say, while im looking down on my phone
"no not really" i say
"oh well at least it's friday!" my mom says, smiling
"wow yay" i say sarcastically, my mom laughs slightly. before I know it we pull up to the school
"bye mom i love you!" i say while getting out of the car.
"bye sweetie, have a good day at school! I'll have Matt pick you up after school" my mom says
"ok!" i say shutting the door and walking into school. the second i walk into school i can just tell it's not going to be the best day, but I just brush it off and walk into elar. i look around for ella but notice she's not here. shit. what am i supposed to do without her? what if people start bugging me again? wait maybe she's just late let me text her

MESSAGES
ella - ella bo bella🤭
maddie - maddie the baddie😛

maddie the baddie😛
r u coming to school today?

ella bo bella🤭
no im not feeling good

maddie the baddie😛
oh ok

fuck. what am i supposed to do without her? no no ill be ok it's just one day. i slump back in my chair and listen to the teachers lesson. finally after a longgg hour the bell rings i get up and start walking to science. this class is ok i have class with ella and the teachers nice, but without ella I don't know how this is gonna go. a bunch of popular girls sit infront of me named Sophie and Rachel, and how should i say this? there so fucking annoying. there really rude and NEVER shut up. i walk into class when i see them staring at me. great, just great. i go into my normal seat when they turn to me

"hey, your maddie sturniolo right?" the blonde one, Sophie asks.
"yeah, yeah i am." I say looking down trying not to make eye contact
"oh the sturniolos little sister" rachel laughs looking at Sophie. i wonder what she finds so funny about that?
"what's funny?" i say
"well how should we put this? your brothers are like super popular and you just seem like the opposite." Rachel says
"which means they probably hate you." Sophie says
"and wishes you were never born." Rachel says. what? do i think they really think this? there's no way i mean come on there my siblings, but i always make them deal with my anxiety. but that's not a reason to hate me i don't think? a bunch of thoughts keep coming into my head cutting out the girls talking about me right to my face. i start to feel my chest tighten up and tears coming into my eyes. i grab my backpack and run out of the class as quick as i can. i run to the bathroom and pull out my phone. i shake and tears fall on my phone while im trying to call mom. it rings for what feels like forever, but there's no response. so I decide to call Matt. there's 2 rings before I hear

"hello? aren't you supposed to be in class?" matt says
"w-will you please come pick me up?" i say between sobs
"yes leaving right now, what happened?" Matt says anxiously
"I'll tell you when you pick me up, c-can you get Chris and Nick to come to I wanna talk to them." i say, while sniffling
"yes, yes of course. I'll be there soon maddie I love you." Matt says
"love you to Matt." I say before hanging up. I throw my phone on my tile floor and lean my head against the stall. i sit there for about 5 minutes until i hear my name over the intercom.