"it's like she doesn't listen! I said, "I don't want to be alone at night." And did she listen? No! It's like she fucking hates me!!" I mumbled, staring at the ground as I walked back to my room for the night.
. . .I'm talking to myself, god what am I, a mental hospital escapee?? Just, shut up. Shut up, shut up. You don't even have a reason to hate Pencil. You're being such a bitch, calm down.
I arrived at my room, throwing everything I brought for icy (that she didn't take) onto the floor. I slammed the door behind me, getting ready to go to bed as fast as possible. It's easier to be asleep. I don't feel angry when I'm asleep. . . It's just easier. Like, I wouldn't ever kill myself, but the idea of an eternal sleep sounds nice to me. I can't be saying shit like that. Not tonight, at least. Gotta wait till I know icy is ok to be insane. Seriously, though, what even is pencils plan with her. There's no need to be around someone you hate so much. . . She's definitely going to hurt someone.
"Do you even hear yourself?" I laughed, getting comfortable in my bed.
. . .I just said that to myself. Yup. Insane. I'll. . . Shut up, just go to bed, book.
No!! If I just sit down and watch her get hurt, I'm no better than the person hurting her! All my progress disappears if she--- THIS ISN'T ABOUT ME! UGH!!
I grabbed some of my pages, pulling at them, and ripping pieces out as if I was a stressed cartoon character yanking at their hair.
No. It's fine. She's fine. Just go to bed, you'll walk her to the bus in the morning, it's fine. . .
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Freesmart Does It Again.
Mystery / Thrillersure, their team wasn't exactly healthy. but, how could they all suspect that one manic episode would tear Freesmart into pieces??
