Not Enough Childhood |Tsukasa Angst|

Mess in mind

*I made this in my files so idk just a lil warming 🧙‍♂️ [I love the wizard emoji so much idk why]*

Tsukasa POV:

I was sitting in my so called "room" looking out of the window there, i felt bad staying out of school just because my parents needed someone to clean the house it was rough cleaning the mess here but, atleast I did something useful, I fell lonely again maybe because I didn't see the others i miss them without them I'm not a star just a loser, what am I even thinking about that's silly. I'm a star! What nonsense am I even saying here? We all know that if I never met Emu, Nene and Rui I would be nothing but a dreaming idiot with a dream that would never come true! But i can't deny that i'm just an idiot, maybe my parents are right i'm just dumb.. and selfish

I hate the feeling of being called that, just thinking about it makes me sick, I can't deny that my parents aren't wrong but I can't deny that they're right either, what a mess

I sighed and stood up from the chair i was sitting on and walked downstairs to the kitchen to take some food, i took just a little bit to leave the rest to my parents it was some rice with meat and sauce, dad will be happy to see that his favourite isn't eaten by a disappointment he had to excuse from school just because of some stupid cleaning

I was sitting at the diner table alone as always, it's something like an canon event some could say, i was eating my food until i felt a sudden wave of sleepiness hit my body i practically forced myself to stay awake now, i cleaned the dirty dishes i used and went into my "room" i layed on my "bed" or as I may say: a mattress with a pillow
I was starting at the celling until my eyes started closing due to the sleepiness, I couldn't help it I just fell asleep, the only thing I hope about right now is that i can wake up when my parents come home

I slowly drifted off to sleep, after a few hours (3) I heard a knock a loud one, looks like someone was knocking for the past hours I slept, I slowly got up rubbing my eyes and walked downstairs I walked over to the door and opened it just to see Emu Nene and Rui there, with concerned faces

Rui:
"Hi Tsukasa-kun, we have come to you because you weren't at school and it made us worry"

Emu:
"I was soo scared that i'm going to get caught!! You know how to hide me but those two don't! Nene hid me at the last second before the teacher could notice but it was CLOSE!"

Emu said this while shaking me, I'm getting used to being treated like this by Emu

Tsukasa:
"I'm sorry everyone! I needed to clean the hou-"

Nene:
"What do you mean? 'Clean the house' can't your parents do that?"

Nene spoke up from behind Rui looking at her phone it was clear that she was gaming

Rui:
"Fufu~ Nene is right, your parents can do it"

Rui chuckled at the start of this sentence
Tsukasa:
"Well my parents are busy with work and stuff like that"

Emu:
"Work!? That's scaaaaryyy! Working is not like smiling right?"

Nene:
"Working isn't like smiling at all it's more like torture"

Emu:
"Aahhh! Torture? That's a weird word"

Tsukasa:
"Do you want to go inside?"

Emu just ran past me inside without agreeing, Rui just chuckled and walked inside with Nene behind him, while looking down at her phone
Rui:
"Fufu~ I've never saw your room, would you mind showing it to us?"

I froze not sure what to do i don't have a real room, it's rather a a place to relax but for me it's my "room" . I chuckled nervously

Tsukasa:
"Well sure if you want it! I'll show you my star room!"

Rui:
"Fufufu~ you seem proud about your room Kasa-kun"

Tsukasa:
"Of course i am! It's a stars room!"

I heard Rui chuckle again and Emu started jumping up and down looking excited

Emu:
"When you're saying that it sounds soo wonderhooy! I want to see it!! It will be the brightest room I've ever seen!"

Nene:
"Well if it's that great then show us "worlds future star" it should be pretty interesting when you're saying that so confidently"

I saw Nene looking up her phone she was still behind Rui, I felt so nervous with three eyes on me... I felt anxious for the first time

Rui:
"Are you alright Kasa-kun?"

Tsukasa:
"I'm fine... maybe.. i just feel a little weird.."

Rui looked at me with a concerned look while Emu had her head tilted and Nene was looking back at her phone as always

Rui POV:

Kasa-kun is acting weird... he looks like he doesn't want us to know how his room looks like

Rui:
"Tsukasa-kun.. we can leave if you want it's no big deal, right?"

Nene:
"I don't care but Emu will be disappoint-"

Emu:
"Awhh I wanted to see your room.."

I looked at Emu with a pleading stare and she looked to her feet and sighed, it was a long sigh she then looked at me and the at Tsukasa

Emu:
"If you aren't feeling very wonderhoy today... i don't need to see your room.."

Tsukas:
"...i'm sorry Emu.."

He looked at me I knew that he wanted the others to leave so it can be just us togheter, he then looked at Emu and she nodded and took Nene's arm carefully so she doesn't ruin her game and walked with her out of Tsukasa's house