JUST....??

CHAPTER SEVEN

Zayn's POV

Silence. That's all I hear. Darkness is all I see. A feeling of numbness runs through every part of my body. Every bone in me.
After sometime, my body begins to toss and turn and beeping sounds fill my ears.
I'm awake. I feel it. My body feels it too but why am I still in this darkness. Am I dead?
"Juni" this is the first word that leaves my mouth.
My throat feels dry. Dead people don't experience dryness of throat...right?
Then why am I still in this darkness. Where am I and where is Juni??

"Juni" my voice comes out as a whisper.
"Zayn" I hear a familiar voice. A painfully familiar one. It's her. My mother. I can never forget her voice. But...where is she? Is she dead as well?? No. Not possible. "Zayn. Are you okay? Should I call the the doctor or do you need water?" her voice is filled with concern but I know it's all fake. She never cared about me and I know she never will.

"Juni. Where's Juni??" I ask. "Where am I? And why are the lights off?". Silence is the answer I get to my questions.

Why is she quiet? And why is it still dark? I'm sure she turned the damn lights off but why?

I try to get up. I feel my body rising. "Hey Zayn please lie down" I feel her hand on my arm. "I'm not lying down" Nothing can be seen in this darkness. "Zayn please listen to mum", I hear another voice. Is it my sister? Are they all here?What's going on? Where's Juni? Why is here dark? And why aren't they giving me answers to my questions??

"Can you both tell me where Juni is?", I yell. "Juni is dead" says another person with a raspy voice. I know that voice. It's Xavier's. So...the whole Valdéz family is here. What are they all doing here??

"You're lying" I refuse to accept the answer he just gave me. "I'm not. Your dear lover...Juni is dead" he says in an annoyed tone. "Xavier!" "What! I'm just telling him the truth" he continues. "Both of you should be straight forward with him"

I go mute. My mind isn't able to process this information. Neither does my heart nor my mind wants to accept this truth. Is Juni dead? This can't be true. He's just saying this to spite me. He's definitely telling lies.

"And dear little mur...brother" Xavier's voice brings me out of my thoughts. "The lights aren't off" "Xavier" there's a sense of warning in this person's voice. but that doesn't scare him. He continues to speak. "You've just gone blind...mummy's favourite pet" He emphasizes on the last three words.

Boom!

It feels like I've been hit by a great  tornado. My mind shuts down. This...nooooo!! "You both can stay here and pamper him. I'm out!" There's no pain or sadness or pity or even care in his voice. No trace of even the tiniest bit of it. Does he hate me this much?

I try to get up after a while. When my mind seems to be functioning again. I can't be blind. He said that because he just wants to torment me...right? The lights are off. That's the only reason why there's soo much darkness here...right?

I try getting up but I find myself on something cold seconds later and I hear crashing sounds. Was he speaking the truth? Am I really blind? This can't be happening?

"Zayn" I feel hands on my arms helping me to get up. That is what it seems like. "I'm not blind...right?" I feel...I don't know...sad? scared? I can't tell the emotions building up inside me right now.

"Zayn. I'm sorry" she embraces me. "What he said is true. But I'll be here for you. Your sister will be here. Mum will also be here" her voice sounds like she's crying. "Being in this condition doesn't mean your life is over".

What is she saying? My life is literally over. I've lost Juni and my sight. How useful am I now to this world. Why didn't death take me away like he took Juni? What is my purpose in this world...in this state?

My hands slowly wrap around her. Her hug seems to bring me some kind of comfort. I find solace in her arms.

I begin to bring out the agony and tears I was holding back. I cry my heart out. I wail. My cries and screams fill the whole room. She doesn't let me go. She hugs me affectionately; crying along with me and my heart begins to open up to her.

Why this? Why now? How am I going to live without my life...without Juni...is it even going to be possible? How will a blind man be of use to the world and to himself?

It hurts. It feels like my heart has been pierced by soo many arrows and it has been tossed into heaping coals of fire to burn.

Why me? Why this fate? Why?

Hmm...I feel Zayn's pain😭. But...Zayn I'm also here for you.
Can't wait for the next chapters.
Love u all😘