Protected by Aloy (GXG)

005

TW: Mention of suicide attempt.

After a really long cold shower, I felt content. I don't know what's it's with me and the showers it always feels nice to emerge all the thinking and other stuff, like i take my best decisions there. Anyways after all of these drama that happened yesterday and today morning I feel kinda dumb to use drugs, I thought it to be a one time thing, i didn't know it would be that dangerous, after whatever happened with my mom and dad, my heartbreak all the things in my life came crashing down on me at that time, I couldn't sleep for hours, I couldn't focus on anything, studies, life in general. I was a wreck. My dad was there for me but he had his own worries so i was mostly alone.

I was caught on bad habits back then, which i still aren't any far from, but it just got worse until one day i tried to end it all, i was just a dumb stupid teenager, who feels way too much for everything, but somehow I am alive today, I still don't know who saved me from that bridge, but i want to give this a chance, I am really trying but sometimes it just got to my head and I do stupidest things like I did yesterday night, i am really ashamed and embrassed about the whole stiuation. I should be grateful to her.

After getting ready I decided to go out in the living room, as i entered I saw aloy there with her laptop scrolling down on netflix, I think I should really give her a chance, to our friendship. 

"hey what are you up too?"I asked moving to the kitchen and grabbing milk carton.

"Nothing, was trying to find a good movie to chill out today, wanna join?" She asked giving me her smile. 

"sure, I am free anyways today, I pretty much missed all the classes" 

"same" she said and moved over to make some space for me to sit.

"what are you watching" I asked as i drank the milk and went over to sit with her.

"I am thinking to watch the half of it "  she said and moved closer.

"yea, let's watch it" I said and moved again to get a comfortable position.

After half the movie I was literally cuddling with her, I guess we both settled on cuddling as the most comfortable position yet so far, her hands are on my waist and is drawing small patterns with her fingers which i think is unintentional. I can't focus on the movie like this being in her arms, my head on her chest listening to her slow heartbeats and her light touch is giving me a sense of comfort. I guess it's safe to say I like this girl. 

I don't know when the movie ended, but now we are both laying on the couch, me almost on top of aloy and her hand is securely wrapped around my waist. I like this moment, I saw the laptop placed on the table closed which means i fell asleep during watching it.

Next morning I wokeup with my phone ringing, Aloy groaned from beneath me and I moved from her as if it's a daily routine for us. I checked the phone and it was my alarm, suprisingly I slept throughout the night, which is rare nowadays. I usually woke all sweating with nightmares I am having recently.

"Good Morning" Aloy mumbled getting on her stomach. OH god her morning voice is so sexy-

"Morning" I said with a blush seeing her bare back as her tshirt slighty rode up cause of the position. 

"what time is it darling"

"7" I replied, did she just- my heart is beating fast suddenly and-

After that I got ready and went to the living room with aloy still asleep on the couch, I should probably wake her up again, I thought she will get ready and was already up.

"Hey wakeup, It's almost 8, do you wanna miss again today?" I said as I patted her shoulders, which I must say is muscular- okay not the time to simp little gay heart.

"Oh god, why must I have to attend the college" she set up looking up groaning. I just chuckled at her sillyness. 

"comeon don't be lazy" I said as i went to grab my coat.

"Can you wait 5 minutes?" she asked giving me a cute look and as I decided to give this a chance I nodded.

suprisingly she was ready in just 10 minutes. And we are not even late so I don't mind, I don't know but I feel light hearted since this morning, I feel so great.

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"You seem bubbly today" Lexi said as we entered the classroom.

"I do?" I asked glancing at aloy.

"MmmHmm" dusty hummed from behind with max with him.

"I guess I just slept good today" I replied smiling. Aloy raised an eyebrow at this which I don't know why gave me a picture in head of us this morning. blushing I looked away from her deep stare.

"Gosh, remind me to never ruin her sleep, I guess it's our lucky day to have a cheerful aria" dusty said.

"Haha, very funny" I rolled my eyes.

During the whole class I can't focus on anything but Her. I don't know why but I feel this pull towards her I can't ignore anymore. Right this moment I can't stop looking at her hands kneeding the clay, with her veins flexing I let my mind wander in places it shouldn't.

I got out of my thoughts as someone as in the proffessor cleared their throat and there were few snickers which got me embrassed.

After the class ended max, lexi and dusty asked me to join them to a club, which I said yes to because why not. As we left the class aloy was still working in so I decided to ask her about the club.

"hey" I said walking up to her.

"Hey what's up?" she said removing her headphones.

"So max, lexi and dusty are going out clubbing, do you wanna tag along?" She seemed taken back for a moment but covered up with a slight smile.

"Sure, When?"she asked cleaning her hands.

"I don't know maybe like in a hour or two" I replied still looking at her hands.

"Okay, just let me pack this up and clean here?" 

"Sure, I will meet you at the room" I waved bye as i hurriedly exited the room. God I don't know what is wrong with me , my heart is beating so fast with just mere moments of her, I need a distraction ughhh.

Soo I finally got the motivation to update another chapter, I am really sorry for not updating it last week I was feeling demotivated throughout the month. But I did it and I will try to do recent updates, I can't for you to read next chapter as It's a bit ahem.

 Thankyou for listening my bullshit :D