Amygdala

Chapter 2: Superhero

Note!

Amygdala is the part of the brain that stores trauma

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After they had stayed at the rooftop a bit longer both of them had gone home to Akks dorm, Akk was still holding on by a thread so Aye became his pillar. When they arrived, Akks room was quite a mess. To be fair the room was not a complete mess but if you just looked a bit closer you could see the basket full of laundry, dirty dishes, not a single towel used, deodorant at arm-reach, the floor with clear dirt traces on it and Aye swears that comfort cover was the same from last time he visited...a month ago. Don't get him wrong, Aye doesn't have a single judgement while he's quickly glancing around Akks room, he gets it, he SO gets it.

So before Akk can even come up with some unnecessary excuse that wasn't needed, Aye turned Akks armchair outwards and gently sat him down. He took Akks hands in his and gave them a gentle peck. Then held Akks face in his hands and looked him right in the eyes while softly telling him with a gentle smile; "Stay here, okay? I'm not leaving." then with a more serious and confident look he says "I will help". So while Akk is sitting there on his armchair with his legs up towards his body, hugging them, he looks at Aye as he collects all of Akks laundry (even the covers?) and more or less punches it all down the laundry basket. He takes all his dishes and puts them in the sink, hell he even puts a clipper on his chips bag.
When Aye is done he goes to Akk and holds out his hand and says " Let's take a shower". Akk looks at him and with such a small smile you wonder if it's actually a smile. He proceeds to take Ayes' hand and follows him to the shower, walking like his body is heavy and difficult to hold up. After Akk got some help to take off his clothes they take a shower together.

The shower had the same type of comfort as laying on that rooftop with Aye. That unrealistic comfort. Neither of them says anything during the shower, Aye cleans himself a little hurriedly then helps Akk to get clean. Akk has to admit, it feels good to finally clean his hair. Something Akk noticed is that during the entire time from the moment he broke down to now, Aye never looked at Akk like he feels sorry for him. He always gave him a look of understanding and empathy as if he related and that he got hurt seeing Akk be hurt, but his eyes never made Akk feel broken, it felt more like a safe place to swim.

The entire night Aye took care of Akk, and Akk wasn't even going to lie; he liked it. He knew he would've cried if Aye had asked him to take a shower without helping him. He was so overwhelmed, he is just trying to breathe. So he's not surprised that Aye became his little superhero that night.

Aye had changed his bedding and asked Akk to go to bed and while he was laying in bed, hugging Ayes new eclipse hoodie (the old one only smelled like himself). Aye had gone around and vacuumed his entire dorm, wiped down tables and even his desk. He did all his dishes and even scheduled a laundry day. Akk laid there that night looking at Aye as he was finishing up the last dishes, not believing that he was real. Aye really was his tiny superhero, who else saves you both physically AND emotionally from darkness?
After Aye glanced back and gave him one last smile for the night, Akk fell asleep, with love in his heart, Ayes smell around him, and with the tiniest smile possibly forming. But it is still a smile.

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It's been a week since the rooftop. A lot happened after that day. For example, Aye hasn't left Akk's side (for which he was very grateful might he add). Aye had helped Akk to make a call to his parents to tell them about everything, since Akk isn't 18 yet he needs his parents in order to get a therapist. That call had been a very emotional rollercoaster. Aye had talked to Akks mom after their call as well to tell her about what places to trust, what not to trust and honestly everything about therapy. Akk was both impressed and slightly concerned why he knew THAT much.