i hate u - N.N (DISCONTINUED...)

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i was currently in niles room waiting for him to come back. he went to go get water a couple of minutes ago. i decided to go downstairs and see what was taking him so long. as i made my way towards the stairs i heard a familiar voice. i entered the kitchen and was met with nelson, niles, and jax.

"what's taking you so long?" i questioned while keeping my eyes on the boy from the party. "sorry i was just talking to jax but we can go back upstairs now" we started walking back upstairs until a voice stopped me. "wait aren't you the girl from the party?" he said walking closer to where i was standing.

"yeah it's nice to see you again" i gave him a small smile which he returned. "niles and i were heading back to his room, you wanna come with?" i tilted my head to the side as i waited for his response. "sure! i mean if that's okay with nelson" we both turned to him. "it's whatever i guess" he answered with an annoyed tone but that didn't stop jax from running upstairs.

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niles and nelson were currently live playing basketball outside while jax and i stayed inside. "so i didn't really get to know you at the party so" he paused. "do you wanna play 20 questions?" i felt myself cringe at the thought of the game but i didn't want to seem rude. "sure" i hesitantly answered. "cool.. so when's youre birthday?" he sat up. "october 3rd"

"oh so you're a libra?" how does he know about zodiac signs? i mean i thought boys were supposed to be completely clueless about them. "yeah.." i scratched the back of my neck. jax is a cool guy but i couldn't help myself but feel uncomfortable. "alright next question. have you had your first kiss yet?" if i wasn't uncomfortable before, then i definitely was now.

i shook my head waiting for his response. "do you.. like want to have your first kiss? do you feel like your ready?" he mumbled. i didn't know what to say. i was never in a situation where i wanted to reject a boy so bad but i'm 14 and all of my friends have already had their first kiss. if i did end up kissing him will nelson be mad? would he even approve of our relationship if we ever ended up in one?

my mind was filled with questions that all ended up relating to nelson in some sort of way. i could tell jax was growing impatient by the way he was slowly scooting closer to me waiting for my answer. can he not wait a little longer, i haven't even said yes and this boys already preparing himself to kiss me. he kept scooting closer to the point where he was basically sitting on my lap. i was nervous but not the good nervous, the bad nervous. i wanted to projectile vomit everywhere.

he started moving his face closer to mine and was starting to lean in until someone opened the door. "thank god" i thought to myself as i turned to look at who just saved me from being traumatized. "yo you're moms outside waiting for you" nelson's eyes were darting between me and jax. "oh yeah i forgot to tell you she was on her way. tell your mom i said thanks for having me over" he dabbed him up and left the room as if nothing happened.

"thank you thank you thank you thank you" i rambled as i ran up to hug him. he tensed up at my touch and his arms were glued to his side. "sorry" i muttered forgetting that we aren't at that stage of friendship anymore. "were you about to kiss my best friend?" he looked at me in disbelief. "ok wait it's not what it looks like let me explain" i held my hands up in some sort of surrender. "what do  you mean it's not what it looks like? you were about to kiss my best friend in my house" i yelled.

i felt a wave of pettiness wash over me and couldn't stop the words that were about to come out of my mouth. "oh so it's okay when you do it but not when i do it? good to know" i was too stunned by my own words and instantly slapped a hand over my mouth. "okay well that's different" he tried to defend himself. "the only thing different is the fact that you did it on MY bed and i wasn't anywhere near yours" i crossed my arms.

i don't know what happened but the next thing i know i'm getting pulled in and feel his soft lips on mine. i didn't feel the same way i did when jax was trying to kiss me. i was more relaxed than stressed. we were forced to pull away when we heard a thud. "what. the. fuck." noah's eyes were almost bulging out of its sockets and his jaw was on the floor.

"shit it's not what it looks like noah" nelson moves to stand next to me. "you guys were literally kissing? i thought you weren't friends anymore" he picked up his phone from the floor. "we're not!! i mean i don't know" i yelled. i never responded to his text from yesterday. i was too tired and didn't know if i wanted to forgive him just yet even though i missed him like crazy. "uhm all i was trying to say was that your brothers here to pick you up" he side eyed nelson as he walked out.

we sat in an awkward silence for about five minutes before he broke it. "can i get another chance? i promise i won't kiss any of your friends, especially on your bed" he scratched the back of his neck. "sure" i said my voice barely above a whisper. "you should probably go or ashton's going to yell at you" he replied grinning ear to ear. i returned the smile as i started walking out of the door. hopefully he doesn't pull anything any time soon.

rory speaks!!
let's ignore the fact that i was gone for quite a while.... 😊