Hot Chocolate Stand

Safe

Jake's POV:

A few years ago..

I was staring at a cute boy, a really cute one. I didn't know his name but we do have a couple of classes together. I also had this weird feeling in my stomach whenever I looked at him. But at the same time it was a weird but good kind of feeling.

"Who are you staring at?" My mom asked, she put my hand on my shoulder and smiled at me. I slightly show her to who I was looking at. "Him, I think he's pretty" I say, my mom looks over and looks back at me and smiles even more.

"Do you like him?" She asks, I slightly nod. "I think so, he's really nice and he's also in a few of my classes" I say smiling.

My mom glances over at my dad and then back at me. I think she was making sure he wasn't listening to our conversation. "Have you ever felt that way about a girl?" She asks, I shake my head in response to say no.

"Have you always found an interest in boys?" She asks, "yeah I guess, why is that wrong?" I say, she immediately shakes her head no. "There's nothing wrong with that, and if that's what you're into that's amazing" she says while smiling.

I don't know why she was asking so many questions but it made me feel like she understood me. "So it's okay if I like him?" I ask, she smiles at me and hugs me. "Of course it's okay for you to like him. You can like whoever you want. But just remember to be careful" she whispers in my ear.

"But why do I have to be careful?" I ask, she glances over at dad again and then back at me. "Well not everyone is going to accept you for who you are" she whispers, I look over at dad then back at her. "Will dad not accept me? Is that why you keep making sure he isn't listening?" I ask quietly, she nods her head yes.

"Why won't people accept me?" I ask quietly, she smiles and brings her hand up to my hair and ruffles it. "People aren't fans of other people who are different than them. But remember you can tell people if you like boys when you know you're safe with them." She says, then she continues.

"But you have to make sure, even some people who are really close to you might not accept you. But that's their loss, just know that I'm always going to accept you." She says, she then gave me another hug. I love my mom, she's always made me feel like myself. "I love you mom" I say, she ruffles my hair again and smiles. "Well I love you more" she says, then I glance back at the cute boy. Suddenly I get the good but weird feeling in my stomach once again.

Back in the present..

I still remember that day, when I figured out who I was. My mom supporting me, all of it. Thinking about it I've always been a mamas boy really I also remember when I lost her. Out of all the days in my life that would be my number one worst day ever. Second, her funeral then whenever my dad is an asshole to me.

Then probably my favorite days was when I figured out who I was. Also last night, well when I was with Devon. Not the part of my dad being an ass.

That night I had so many emotions. Bad and good, I felt like not being with someone to never wanting to leave someone. I've only had a few people actually care for me and show it. My mom, my science teacher Miss Fairchild, Nadine, Lexy, and now Devon.

My mom showed me it's okay to be who I am. Nadine was my first friend I could actually be myself around. Lexy was someone I could shit talk with, and also have a deep conversation about family. Miss Fairchild was the first teacher who actually cared, sorta felt like a mother figure after my mom died. She also felt like a father figure at the same time because my dad.. Well he doesn't feel like a dad.

Then Devon, he's so sweet. He shows he cares for me. When he hugged me it reminded me of when my mom hugged me those years ago. It was a hug where I felt safe, safer than whenever I was "home".

Also when Devon held my face and then kissed my cheek. It made me have those weird but good feelings in my stomach. I also couldn't stop looking at Devon. I also really wanted to kiss him.

I woke up with arms around my waist and I couldn't help but smile. Devon woke up and I felt him move his hand from my waist up to my hair. He then started messing with my hair.

I then felt him rest his head on my head. He kissed it, that made me feel like passing out. Then he went back to messing with my hair.

"I know you're awake" he whispers, I look up at him and he's already smiling at me. I laugh while I hide my face in his arms. He starts laughing too and puts his face on my head. "Hi Dev" I murmur, I feel him smile.

"Hi Jake" he says, I look up at him and he is looking straight back at me. "How do you feel" he asks, I can't stop smiling. "Safe" I whisper, I then feel him move his hand hold my face. "How are you?" I ask, he's still smiling and me and response. "Really good" he says.

"Hey, can I tell you something?" I ask, "yeah of course, what's up?" He says smiling. "Well I like boys, as in you know.. I'm gay" I say, he laughs and slightly ruffles my hair. "Really I couldn't tell." He says sarcastically. We both start laughing and then he speaks again. "You know I also like boys as well" he says, I smile and then we both start laughing again.

While we're laughing I look at him; whenever I look at him it gives me a sense of comfort.  This was the same boy that I was staring at a few years ago. The same boy who made me figure out who I really was that day. He also stills gives me that weird but good feeling in my stomach. I do really like him, sometimes I might think I'm in love with him.