The Young Verstappen

15.

Today I felt completely different after yesterday and I felt that it was me today we drove with Max again because he went to the principal's office to solve the fight neither of us spoke in the car because Max made me very angry yesterday we drove to school and I  went straight to the first class, I didn't even say hello or thank you to Max, I was talking to Vanessa by the lockers and James came, I turned around but he called me to wait, he wanted to talk about yesterday. I nodded to him and we walked aside, I told him to do it, I have a class in a little while, he apologized to me and told me that he still loves me, I was shocked but I told him "It's too late for this, James, I am  happy with someone else you cheat on me at that party" and I left for class. I couldn't concentrate on school because I didn't want to move and I wanted to stay with Max and I don't even want to try that and no one can understand that, at least for me, i kept parties during my studies where I probably drink something to forget about all this but that doesn't even help. Thursdays are the longest days from school because we have until four and I hate it and most of all it went very slowly the lunch break was also very long and I didn't feel like it at all David came to me I didn't want anything to do with them but he told me to sit down I'd rather go to class, I want to ignore everyone today and I couldn't concentrate at all in class, I had to keep thinking about Max and how it probably went with the principal and if it will even get into the newspaper and if so Max will be in trouble so I pray that they agreed with the director to keep it between them. The last two hours I have with Vanessa I didn't even want to talk to her even though she knew what happened yesterday so I didn't tell her what happened then at home so she always knows what's going on I didn't want to go to my mother or my father I didn't even want to go Max and Lando are no longer here, I don't want to keep running after Charles and for both of them that I'm cheating on them is not good for us either, school is finally over and Vanessa and I were supposed to go shopping, we met in front of the school where David and James were, I wanted to leave but there was Vanessa who reassured me that David would lend her a car so that the two of us could go shopping, I thanked her and the boys sat in the front and the two of us in the back David and James don't have that far to school David gave Vanessa the keys to the car and we we went shopping, I visited about three stores where we each bought two dresses. I wanted to go buy some more earrings, so the only one nearby was APM Monaco. I also bought one of Vanessa's, they really liked her and she thanked me and took me home for that. I got my things and went to see what was going on at the table. My parents and Max and Kelly were sitting across from each other. I knew that dad hated mom and couldn't stand being in the same room. No one noticed me until I slammed the door from the dining room, so I everyone looked at me and I looked at them completely crazy Max asked me to sit down I cut him off from the answers no and I asked my parent "So are you going to explain to me why you're here when you can't look each other in the eye or respect each other?" they just looked at me and lowered their heads and then dad answered "Jane we are here for you can you please sit down" I told them no and Max started talking "Jane is here because they wanted to agree on who you are going to so please sit down and listen to them" I lowered my head and said "No I can't sit Max!" I yelled at him and Max and I started arguing again "Jane, calm down, sit down, I'm not going to beg you, we all want to talk to you because you're suffering from some  problems!"                           "Which isn't true I don't understand why you're making a fool of me here Max now but you know what Max you've never seen it but our family is toxic before I didn't understand but now I know why Victoria left here and you Kelly I thought you you can believe but you can't!"                   "Jane had er genoeg van!"-translation: "Jane has had enough!" dad shouted at me in Dutch, I looked at him and knew that only dad and Max understood us and I answered him in Dutch too  "Je meent het niet, jullie kunnen allebei niet goed overweg met mama en nu zit je in dezelfde kamer en zeg je dat ik wat problemen heb!"-  translation: "You're not serious, you both don't get along with mom and now you're sitting in the same room saying I have some problems!" I started laughing and Max told me Dutch of course "Jane, we zijn er nu niet voor Victoria of onze ouders, we zijn er voor jou!"- translation: Jane, we're not here because of Victoria or our parents right now, we're here because of you!"                                                                                                                        "Oh mijn God serieus Max, je kunt niet serieus zijn, maar wacht eens, hoe is het afgelopen met mijn directeur?" - translation: "Oh my god, seriously Max, you can't be serious, but wait, how did it go with my principal?" I asked and with a laugh I went to my room and to do various building designs that I had to have ready by tomorrow to school, I wasn't even on skype with Lando because I didn't have time and I still had to print some papers and I was doing everything late until the night and I still put on one of those dresses and took the earrings and took a couple of photos and went to the shower after the shower I changed into pajamas and edited the photos and put it on Instagram as a post and on stories and for a while I was on Instagram and I scrolled through the stories and I didn't care at all, I don't know which account it was from, but there was a picture of Charles with a some girl and it was definitely not me, I said to myself that I would leave it as it is and went to sleep but I couldn't fall asleep and still on top of that Max came to check on me and he must have thought I was sleeping because Max told me this "Jane I don't want you to move away you mean so much to me and I don't want you to leave me I love you and I hope you know that and I will always always protect you my little sis." He gave me a kiss and before he left I turned and told him "Maxi I know and I love you too" I smiled and he did too and closed the door and I tried to sleep.