For the past 2 months I have been the aim of affection for a girl whom I go to school with. Once again I find myself in the affections of another girl I have zero interest or attraction to.
For the past few weeks she did her best to peak my interest but to no avail. This must be what they call friend-zoning. Although I noticed something the more I got to know how she was as a person. Typically she was a person who preferred a razor on their arm as a substitute for emotional pain. The kind of person who feels their pain is so harsh emotionally that life is no longer worth living. It made me frustrated at what life has been reduced to and at what people will do with theirs. It also made me bang my fucking head on the wall for having to deal with another suicidal, obsessed, and ugh person. To me she seemed weak. Every time I walked away or left to go home she would go all "don't leave me here" or "jerk" or just start playing around with my clothing or backpack straps. That is NOT my definition of cute.
As time went on, to my disdain, I had to talk to her more via online messaging. More suicidal tendencies continued, and more of her "woe is me" attitude if I left her alone for a day. Like damn, give me my space, we're not even dating.
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Everyday Thoughts
HumorThe incomplete random series of the inner workings of my mind. It goes to some pretty dark and pretty dumb places sometimes.
