Lauren PoV
When Rylee came to talk to us she confirmed my worries. Carson even waited for Bane and Crow to leave before showing me some affection. Maybe I can stop it in its tracks.
While we are on stage I see Carson standing in the back. She smiles at me and waves. For the first time in about a week, I see my girlfriend instead of a stranger. But I still want her to know that she is confusing the hell out of my heart.
Who Are You starts and I look her dead in the eye while we are singing. Her smile turns into a frown which then turns to a blank face. I guess she heard enough because she disappeared from my view.
My love for her will never waver. But it's hard when the person you give your all to is ashamed of being with you or whatever this is.
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"GOODNIGHT GUYS WE LOVE YOU!" We scream to the crowd.
In our dressing room I find a note on the table addressed to me.
Lauren,
Meet me in our hotel room when you're ready. We need to talk about some things.
I don't know what to expect. Should I stall myself? Should I meet her there or not? My phone buzzes and it's Rylee.
"Hello?"
"Lauren! Have you left yet?" Rylee sounds frantic.
"N-no. I'm still getting changed. Why what's up Ry?" Concern is clear in my tone.
"Lo, she threw out her pills. They are still in the bottle, but the bottle is in the trash. I'm bringing them to you now." She said before hanging up.
I put on my jeans and pull on a crop top. Rylee walks in and hands me the bottle.
"Lauren, she was pissed when she left. I don't know if she's talked to you or anything but be careful when you get to your room."
Rylee is genuinely concerned right now and I know why. Carson is pretty rough when anything upsets her even a little. But if I don't show up at all, she is gonna be absolutely furious.
"I will Rylee."
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The girls and I get to the hotel and I cautiously enter my room. I don't hear her anywhere so I call out.
"Carson? Carson baby?" I call out entering the bedroom.
"Baby? You sure you wanna call me that?" I hear her voice and then the door to the hotel room slam shut.
I turn around and she's facing the door with her head down and her hand resting on the door. Then she slowly turns around to face me.
"You know Lauren..." She walks toward the mini fridge and grabs a bottle of water.
"I've only ever been in one real relationship before you and it didn't turn out so hot. But what I'm finding is even when I'm giving my all, it will never be enough. Why is that Lauren?"
In this situation I feel like an animal being stalked by a predator. Her eyes are methodical and dangerous, more black than brown. She is walking in a slow circle around me.
"You are enough" I manage to just barely keep my composure.
"Then why would you sing that song to me? Have I not been clear about who I am and how I feel to you?" Her voice was gradually getting louder.
"No not really Carson! You're distant and aggressive and I don't recognize you any more! Do you even fucking love me anymore?!" I yell in her face and throw the water bottle at her .
She caught the water bottle before it hit her and threw it on the ground so hard that it burst.
"Lauren. Don't you ever question my love for you." She growls at me, getting dangerously close to my face. Then she yells directly in front of my face.
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Who Are You (Lauren)
RomansaCarson Baretti. She is a singer/songwriter, dancer, and rapper. She plays the drums, guitar, bass, and piano. She speaks 6 languages and is very popular. Carson is an out and proud lesbian, who attends and performs at pride every time it comes aroun...
