Her Eternal Love

Rage.

After last night's crying session, I realised rage got to me again. Self hate got to me again. After I saw him, I thought I would be.. okay again. But since he changed too, I changed too. I was rude too. I was rageful. I was mad. At Ulrica at everyone.

But this isn't me. Is it?

The next day, class continued as it always did. And I continued doodling on my notebook. He was in my class but I did not look at him anymore

After all, he wasn't mine to look at.

Eric was Abrar's best friend. He was a blonde haired, blue eyes nerd. I couldn't believe how they two even connected to each other. One's a jock and the other one was a geek. But both of them bonded well. Friends since childhood.

And still were. That gave me a bit hope that maybe..

Hope? What hope? Maybe what? He doesn't like you anymore. Get over it.

[bell rings]

I was wearing my black hoodie, my hair was very messy. I did not care how I looked. What's to care about. I was upset. Sad. Not wanting to talk to anyone. When..

Ulrica: oh look, poor Ava's sitting here all. Alone.

She said in a mocking tone. Two of her friends with her

Jathline: have you seen her hair? She doesn't shower for a WEEK. Bro.

Kimberly: Right?? She's so weird.

Could.. you guys like.. leave me alone?

Ulrica: oh look she talks.

What.. are we? 12?

Jathline: no you are lik 36 bro. You are literally so fat.

........

Kimberly: ouch. She mockingly laughed.

Ulrica: Awh guys don't be mean to her, she lost her mother.

Jathline: Bet she ate her.

Kimberly: what the- *she laughs*

......

Ulrica: poor Ava, your mother sure died because of you. Because she couldn't stand how fat and ugly you were huh—-

Before she could finish that line, a punch flew across the air and landed on Ulrica's face. She flew back and fell on the floor. The whole class gasped. The friends yelled out and Ulrica started screaming and crying holding her nose which oozed out blood.

I stared. The punch was needed. She got too much on my nerves.

Ulrica: you fucking bitch, SOMEONE HELP ME IT HURTS!

The boys ran in, Abrar ran in and held Ulrica. Ulrica complained

Ulrica: she- SHE PUNCHED ME- MY NOSE- ITS BLEEDING- MARTINEZ PLEASE- SAY SOMETHING!

Ulrica cried. Abrar looked at me. His eyes red. With anger and a look saying "why would you.. ". He was upset.

But he didn't say anything. I left the room silently while everyone recorded everything.