Her Eternal Love

Happens

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Why...?  Why did god do this?? I have been avoiding him for so long. I thought I could get away with the hurt. But.. why did god put me here. With him?..

Scott: so, he will teach you all the work. As you are a trainee. You will learn. And both of you should be able to run for the summer. Cool?

.....

Abrar: he tilt his head, with a very sly smirk. Sure thing, sir.

What's the smile about -_- 

Scott nodded and left. And...

Abrar: hello there, Miss Ava. My new colleague.
I believe you must be very surprised right now.

Is.. this a joke..

Abrar: oh- no no no. It's not. You are my trainee. And I am here working with you. Nothing personal.

... :/. I-

Abrar: what? Nervous? Can't work with me? Sarcasm.

— NO. I can. I will. I can ofcourse.

Abrar: right.

... whole.. summer?

Abrar: Whole Summer Azha.

He seems happy about it.. but he doesn't show it. Should I be happy about it? I should be. It's my dream come true.

Abrar: come here, let me show you how to make those caramel popcorns.

...uhm..

Abrar: here.

I went with him, then he told me to bring the caramel from the side. I got the caramel for him. And then looked at him. He looked.. dreamy in that.. hat. In the Cineplex uniform, the red and yellow uniform. His brown eyes sparkled.

Abrar: madam can you pour the caramel or will you spend the entire eternity looking at me?

—- uh- yes. Yes -

I poured the caramel. He watched me. He really watched me. It was so different when he watched me. I could always feel his eyes on me. And I loved his eyes on me. It made me feel, loved. By him.

But he has..

I looked at him.

How's Ulrica?

Abrar: who's Ulrica?

... don't be silly. Your girlfriend!

Abrar: ugh don't call her my girlfriend.

... you guys date each other.

Abrar: she's just a fling. She said she wanted to be with me or sum, so I agreed.

Agreed?

Abrar: you sound very mad about it.

Mad? - me? No way. I am very mad. How can you?!

Abrar: she still likes me though. And she does hang around with me

So.. why are you telling me this.

Abrar: no just, letting you know.

Letting me know?!

Abrar: he laughs. And then you are so mad about it Azha.

Abrar. I am not.

Abrar: really..?

I don't contact my eyes with him. I keep looking at the popcorns while he stands beside me. Our bodies really close. He sounds.. not mischievous anymore. But a bit, serious.

He's charismatic.

Abrar: don't you feel.. anything while I..

He softly caressed my cheek with his finger, I froze on spot. His touch on my cheek. The touch I yearned for. For months. His touch. And I finally got it. Shivers ran through my spine. And I immediately looked at him, with watery eyes.

Abrar: hey.. why the tears?

Because you changed.

Abrar softly took his hand away. Then looked at her.

You changed completely. Shut yourself off. Completely. You have Ulrica. And your fame. And everything. You don't even care to look at me.

Abrar: you.. left me..

And I am SORRY for it. I truly am.

Abrar: .....

But I did not expect you to..

Abrar: what..?

Nothing.

And once again, I didn't say. Anything. 

Abrar: ...

I will manage the counter, I guess we should keep this very professional.

Abrar: Hm. Fine.

He sounded upset. I.. I didn't speak. I continued work. We both did. Without talking to each other

I hate myself. For being me. For not talking. For not fixing. For everything.