Secrets in Plain Sight

ballet and greetings

A/N:moving quick with this fic hehehe

TW: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND EATING DISORDERS THEY DONT SPECIFICALLY SAY IT BUT YOU CAN EASILY READ BETWEEN THE LINES. BE CAREFUL
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Y/N POV:

As soon as she opened the car door I was pretty much glued to her, the thunder not letting up and a few lighting strikes were set off not too far off in the distance. We made quick work of unlocking her front door and my breath hitched when I heard two different voices call out to her. She was engulfed in a small pair of arms and a squeal from her little girl, as her husband greeted her with a gentle kiss on the forehead.

I looked around sheepishly just observing their interaction and smiled when her daughter babbled about all the movie they were going to watch tonight. I caught sight of her small ballet slippers hanging off one of the key hooks and kept a mental note on that for later if I needed to build conversation. "So Y/n, Scarlett had me read over your resume and documents and I'm actually quite surprised. For an 18 year old you've got yourself reasonably sorted" her husband praised me as he held Cosmo on his hip and bounced him a little.

"Oh um yeah, had to grow up quickly, Mom and Dad separated when I was little so I was always used to doing things on my own when I wasn't at the right house to be taught specific things. I have money on the side for occasions if needed to take the kids out while you are away and my study schedule won't clash with the hours you need me for. I've got online courses if need be and I can assure you that anything you say goes. I'm here for you guys to make things a little easier for you with work and the kids" I finished my small rehearsed formal talk with a nervous but hopeful nod.

"Darling I never said I needed a speech, I was just saying how mature you seem to be. There's no need to put so much pressure on yourself. I'm going to start dinner if you want to either join in setting the table or keep Rose and Scarlett busy in the lounge room" he smiled and handed Scarlett the baby while she just studied me. I ducked my head and nodded out of slight embarrassment following Scarlett and Rose out before mustering up a small 'thank you' to Colin. "Don't be so nervous hun" Scarlett's voice was soft and a little concerned.

"Sorry" I mumbled out and turned my attention to Rose who was looking at me with a weird look. "What's that?" She pointed to the end of a scar on my collarbone. "Oh I had that when I was a small girl just like you, I was chasing my kitty cat around and fell right into the fence!" I giggled quietly at her animated expression. "Mommy says we can't have a cat because Cosmo is too little" she pouted and slowly walked closer to me. "Does it still hurt?" She asked and looked up at me.

I bent down choosing to ignore Scarlett watching us and pulled the neck of my shirt out a little bit showing the full scar. "No but it looks cool now, it means I was very brave" I smiled when she whispered a small 'woah' and traced the scar with her finger. I made a conscious decision however to keep my sleeves down because she didn't need to be exposed to that at all if I could help it. "Now what was that movie you were talking about Miss Rosie, let's see if we can find it" she beamed and led me over to the couch to sit next to her mom. "You sit there next to mommy because you're almost as old as her cause she's old" the small child rambled as she pushed me down next to Scarlett.

"Oh gosh Rosie I'm not that old!" Scarlett gasped in fake shock and her child just giggled as the movie started. Only a couple minutes in and Rose has already crept her way into my lap leaning against me. "Be prepared, she'll latch onto you" Scarlett whispered quietly and I nodded wordlessly. Around half an hour into the movie my eyes were starting to feel heavy and I swear all my energy from today was gone. Wake the fuck up. Don't ruin this opportunity. Don't be embarrassing.

My body momentarily tensed and I felt Scarlett move slightly. Colin called out dinner in five and I knew I had to properly snap myself out of this haze. "I'm just gonna go grab my water bottle, be right back I think I left my bag by the door" I whispered to Scarlett as Rose snuggled up to her when I moved. She just nodded and I swear I felt eyes on me when I walked over to my bag. My water bottle had Gatorade in it so hopefully that'll help a little with the fatigue and I can always have coffee when I go back home tonight anyway.

By the time I finished my bottle it was pretty much time to go eat dinner. I waited for Scarlett and Rose to move before moving myself over to the dining room, not wanting to be the first. It was spaghetti. Pasta. My worst enemy. Carbs. I controlled my nerves a little by thanking Colin for making the dish and sat next to Rose, in front of Scarlett and next to Cosmo in his high chair. Colin was next to Scarlett and he served us all, giving myself the same amount as himself and Scarlett. Oh my god. Okay let's do this. Don't freak out. Just act normal. Focus on Cosmo or Rose.

I came to about a little under half way of my plate and physically clumsily stomach the rest. I gently placed my fork down and just listened to the conversations happening around the room. Every now and then Scarlett would look over at me and I felt forced to pick up my fork, when she'd look away of course I'd put it back down. I don't need those carbs. "So Rosie, I heard from your mommy that you do ballet? I used to do it too!" I turned to the small child and smiled when she gasped with a mouth full of pasta. "Sorry pumpkin I didn't realise you had a mouthful" I cringed at the scene but Coin stifled his laughter. "Trust me, this is nothing" he chuckled and Rose sent him a glare.

"Yeah my mommy always takes me to dance class, I love ballet you should come too!" she exclaimed all excitedly after chewing down her bite. "Oh I don't know honey I'm very busy sometimes. Maybe one day I'll dance again, and you can show me all the moves you've learnt!" I sent her a small smile and she just nodded with a thumbs up and another mouthful of pasta. "Eat up sweetheart it'll get cold" Scarlett lowkey sent me the mom look and I sucked in a small breath.

"Is it alright if I don't finish it? I had a big lunch and too many café sweets this morning?" I silently begged her in my head and she just raised an eyebrow at me. "Fine but I'll put some in box for you to take home alright?" She warned semi seriously and I just nodded. Oh my god this babysitting gig is either gonna be a blessing or a curse.