I regret it..

Hopeless

Time skip 1 week later

POV : Elizabeth

there i was, i was laying in the garden with beautiful flower crown, the type me and ciel used to make when we were kids. It surely brought back memories.

I didnt remember how i got there and when i got there but i was wearing a midnight blue ballgown. I propbably shouldnt sit on the grass with such a high expense dress but at the moment it didnt seem to bother me.

Till i felt a presence behind me, while uplifting my head to turn around i saw no other then my first and only love. Phantomhive Ciel,

He slowly sat next to me but he looked differently. He had always had a rather more composed cold look but this time it was different. There was a weird atmosphere hanging around.

He suddenly turned to me after looking forward for a few seconds, he then gently took of the flower crown that was laying on my head  a few moments prior.

"you know lizzy." he said looking down on the flower crown avoiding eye contact.

"you should stop pretending." 

"Huh?" i said finishing with a slight chuckle, not understading his statement. "What do you mean ciel?"

"You should stop pretending im still yours, im not, its over lizzy." with that he got up and left leaving me with tears streaming down my face.

"Miss Elizabeth? miss elizabeth! Its time for you to start your day!" i woke up with paula next to me, it was a dream. It has been a week since ciel called of our engagment. I was heartbroken and wouls spend my days in my room or in the garden, crying or looking at literally nothing.

My face became much more pale in that week and dark circles started to form  under my eyes. "Its time to get you ready for breakfast! The others are waiting for you miss." 

Normally i wouldve told her i dont feel like it and stay in my room. But it has been some days since i've properly eaten. "O-okay"

Paula started with brushing my hair and while i looked in the mirror i realized how horrible i looked due to neglecting my well being this week. But at the moment i realized i didnt care as much anymore.

"Let's go shall we?" Paula said finishing the bow in my hair. I got up and put on my shoes walking into the dinning room.

As i enterd the room fell silent, everyones gaze being on me. Especially Edwards. I slowly walked to my seat sitting down looking down on my food for severe seconds before taking a bite.

"So uhm..Lizzy, darling..How have you been lately?" i could feel my mom stare daggers into his back without even making eye contact with either of them. It took me a few seconds to muster up words to speak. "Ive been...well" i said cutting up a piece of sausage and carefully placed it in my mouth. Silence filled the room once again.

"W-well thats good dear..What do you think about some fencing training later? Like before?" My mom said trying to change the mood.

"Uh..i dont know im still quite tired" i said once looking down again. "Well you did sleep rather long today didnt you?" i responded by nodding my head continuing eating.