I regret it..

The invitation

I stiffed up when i heard the girl mention me gripping the newspaper tight. 

"I- i think thats her?" the other girl exclaimed whispering but loud enough for me to hear.

"Oh God.."

suddenly i heard a big group of people murmuring around me, not knowing how to react or what my next move should be. 

"Is that Elizabeth Midford? She hasn't showed her face in quite some time."

"Didnt she get dumped by her fiancé?"

"She must be a horrible fiancé then"

the crowd just kept talking like i wasnt standing before them. Overwhelmed with anxiety i found myself crying once again.

"Lizzy? Where are you?" suddenly in the corner i saw Edward and  his gaze changing once he laid eyes on me. It didn't take long for him to understand the situation since my name was thrown around a dozen of times by strangers with no filter surrounding me.

Without another thought he stepped in and started screaming at the crowd

"HOW DARE YOU TALK TO MY LITTLE SISTER LIKE THIS? THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE BEHAVIOUR ! YOU BETTER APOLOGIZE RIGHT NOW!" 

While he went on his rant with the mass Paula quickly came over to me escorting me back into the  carriage.

With the newspaper half crushed in the palms of my hand.

Those brief hours of joy were destroyed in mere minutes making me remember it, making me remember him. Where did i go wrong, i always did what was best for him, for us.

I loved him and i still do, lost in my inner thoughts i didnt even notice Edward stepping in the carriage beside me.

"Lizzy are you okay?" he said slightly shaking me to the side, "y-yes im fine" i said , i felt  so  annoyed with how pityful my voice sounded. We went back to the manor in silence. I put my fathers' newspaper on his desk and went to my room immediately blaming my door.

I was confused with my feelings. It was certain i didnt feel well but i couldnt point a finger on what i was feeling.

Frustration? Sorrow? heart break? Anger? To be honest i dont know what i feel and how i wanna continue, maybe im just scared of healing or moving on from this situation. It hurts to  be nothing to him, after all that time. He was and is my one and only love.

time skip

knock knock

"It's open" the door got opened slowly with a tall brown haired young woman behind it, paula, my housemaid and someone who became a dear friend of mine over the years. She was in her mid-twenties but even though there was quite a age difference i would be lying if she wasnt my dearest friend.

"Lady Elizabeth, how are you doing?" with a tight tone of voice. "Im managing paula, Is there anything i can help you with?"

"Oh yeah!" 

"M'Lady! There has been a letter delivered to you" she looked somewhat hesitant when handing the letter to me, it was neatly placed in both her hands as i reached out for it she looked at my hands for a few seconds like there was something laying on top of it.

When she finally handed it to me i observed it for a few seconds. Opening it carefully,

When i finally opened it i couldnt believe it, it was an invitation , to ciels birthday party. My heart skipped a beat when seeing his name on the envelope. It hasn't been that long since we called our engagement, and now he wants me to celebrate his special day with him? It's a whirlwind of emotions to be completely honest with myself. Part of me wants to know if he truly moved on or not, but at the same time i was hesitant. I mean , he ended things for a reason, right? I didnt know if seeing his invitation in my hands should make me emotional just as it did when i saw it in the newspaper, i wasnt sure how to place it. Ciel never liked to celebrate his birthday for the past 5 years, i practically begged him to celebrate his 13th birthday so why? After a few minutes of me silently staring at the wall collection my thoughts and Paula waiting patiently beside me i finally spoke up.

"When did this  arrive?" 

HEY!! i know this chapter is very short but i have exams, i will try to update my other stories tho and add a new chapter tmr!! :))