Desires|Matheo Riddle

restarting the beginning

I had fixed everything with everyone. We wasn't friends or anything but they all knew the truth. If it was up to me I would still be friends with them but not when they didn't trust me. Me and Pansy talked off and on since we shared a dorm but that's about it.

I spent most of my time with the gryfindoors, they made me laugh but nothing compared to my- the others. My old 'friends'. I won't deny I'd still do anything for them and I missed them deeply. But there's nothing for me to do anymore.

I decided to go for a late night swim as I haven't in a while and it was peaceful, I missed it. As I was walking down I saw someone sat down side of the lake. It was Matheo, I sat next to him and saw the drink in his hand.

"Your drunk..." I muttered.

"It's about the only good thing that I can do when you won't even talk to me" he chucked.

"You have the others" I said.

"Nope, the famous band broke up. Plus its not the same without you." His voice sounded broken.

"I'm sorry Matty" I mumbled.

"You don't understand how much I hate you calling me that yet missed it" and he took another sip of his drink.

"You hate places like this, why are you here?" I asked changing the subject.

"This is the place I fell for you" he replied. "I wish I didn't fuck everything up" he said throwing the bottle smashing it.

"You didn't, I overstepped when you was upset." I said but he grabbed my hand looking at me deep in my eyes.

"No, I was a dick as usual. I didn't realise how much you ment to me."

I pulled my hand away. "So you and Molly..." I muttered looking down at the lake.

"We was arguing, she kissed me, I yelled, everyone twisted it" he replied.

"Nothing new there" I chuckled softly and he did too.

"Hey...you know if there was a way to fix this, I would" he said softly. I felt like I was about to cry and I didn't want him to see so I jumped into the water. Hands came up behind me slowly moving on my waist.

"Remember how this felt..." he whispered kissing my neck. I closed my eyes for a second loving and missing every bit of this until I pulled away.

"Matheo..." I muttered turning to him and my hands were on his chest.

"I know, I just miss it" he mumbled back. I felt a tear fall from my eye and he wiped it gently with his hand on my face. "I'm sorry you love me." He said softly.

I don't know what came over me but I hugged him tight and he hugged me tighter back.

"I missed you" I whispered and he pulled me closer.

"I love you, and I'm sorry for everything. I'll be better." He said kissing my forehead. We looked eachother deep in the eyes for a moment and it felt like heaven.

"You shouldn't lose your friends because of me." I said.

"There your friends too." He replied.

"But they don't want me there. You should be though." I mumbled.

"No darling. They meant nothing, we was all mad and confused. Talk to them with me and we will fix everything" he said. I nodded and he smiled softly.

"I could lose us either" he said.

"Me either" I said back. He kissed me and I kissed him back.

"Can I be your boyfriend?" He asked pulling away slowly. "For real this time?"