beautiful scars on critical veins

the morning after

3:00 a.m

My eyes wide open , staring at the celling , Only a bright light coming from my window , must be the street lights , so many voices in my head , telling me different things about everything and nothing , I closed my eyes ,

4:00 a.m

Still not asleep , my eyes closed repeating different plays in my head , it was a nightmare ,
It must be a nightmare ,
But , am not that kind of person
I never give up
Am strong ,
But I did ,
Hush ,
You're fine
Am fine ,
Stop crying .

5:00 a.m

Just close your eyes and sleep
Sleep
Every part in my body telling me to sleep
Forcing me to let go and forget ,
That's what I did ,
I fell asleep .

10:00 a.m

"Wake up , hun , your dad needs you downstairs , it's a suprise , come on ,go get dressed and be there in 10 okay ! " my mom almost screamed at me

"Ah hmmm , what ?! " I was so tired , but the moment I woke up i realized she was sitting on my bed , that moment , I frozed but in a second I've hidden my arms under the sheets and nod to her as an answer ,

She left the room closing the door behind her , giving me time to wake up and get dress , and that's what I did , i took a shower , brash my teeth and I wore a black oversized t_shirt with long sleeves and Skinny jeans , I went downstairs , I glanced at my dad for a second before I spoke

"What's happening ? " dad looked at me with a disgusting look like I was nothing but his daughter , but mom in the other side she looked happy , like a beautiful angel

Had I ever told you about her smile , oh god the way she smiles , or the way she looks at somethingn or someone , her eyes spoke a million truth and a million secret , she was perfect , she was an angel

"Today , you're going to meet your mother , Ali's gonna drop you off at the airport while you can wait for her there ! Then go somewhere private and talk or do something fun with her daughters" mom spoke happily like it was nothing

I can't go ,

But I want to see her , to talk to her , to know her ,

I can't go ,