Journal

June 19, 2015

Okay I just wanted to tell you guys that I found out today that my best friend is in love with me. And that he didn't really like New like I thought he did. And that he isn't really gay. And that this was the year of secrets.
Oh wait... I guess I never told you guys what happened with New and I and New and my best friend. Well, I'll call my best friend "C" and I'll call New "New" and me "me".
So anyways, a while back New told me that we shouldn't talk anymore and I said why and he said, and I quote "because I have a gf" and so I got mad and we didn't speak to each other for two and a half weeks. So then, New comes back two and a half weeks later and puts his shoe on my chair, says "don't move", and ties his stupid shoe. Well, me being the person that I am, says "oh so I take it you're talking to me now?" And he just stops, looks at me, playfully hits me, and walks away. I. Was. FURIOUS! He didn't speak to me for two and a half flipping weeks and then he thinks he can come back like "Oh hey Rhianna. Yeah I'm just going to talk to you like nothing happened and then I'll break your heart again and life will be good for me. Dur da dur!". Um no thank you.
What I wanted to do was get up and go to the girl's restroom but no, I just sat there (me being the idiot I am). I should've got up, should've stopped talking to him, and should've gotten over him. Well, I didn't. I just sat there, turned red as a tomato, got stiff as a board, and said "so you're talking to me again?" Like the hopeful idiot I am.
So anyways, a few weeks later we're still talking and yeah. Life is great. Until he starts flirting with my friends right in front of me. Like okay, yeah I understand girls in your grade that are your friends but girls in my grade that are my friends? Out of the question. So I get mad and tell my best friends, spiderman_fitch and Mischief_Managed__I and they helped some but not like guidance person help. You know?
So anyways I just leave it alone (because truthfully, it's his personality) because (I'm going to use initials here. MMI and SF. Figure it out if you don't know who I'm talking about) it's almost his birthday and he'll be a year older and MMI told me "maybe with (his new age) comes maturity" and that gave me hope.
So anyways, four days after school is out, I get a text from C that says "I need a man" and (JUST JOKINGLY) I put how about New? And he says "guess names" and I say "New" and he says "no..." And so I ask him if he likes New or not and he's putting all these "..." And "???" And "!!!" And it's getting on my nerves and so finally I say "OMG STOP WITH THE "..." OR I WILL HURT YOU! JUST ANSWER THE QUESTION! DO YOU LIKE NEW OR NOT?!" And then he says "yes" and so I say "for how long" and he says "since I first saw him" and I say "okay I'll talk to you at band" and then I block him. I didn't speak to C for three days and then on the fourth day I texted him and told him I was sorry and he said that he was sorry and now we're friends.
But just today I found out that he likes me. No, I'm sorry... Loves me. But the way I found out is that I pretended to be something from the future and I was like "I am from the future. I have kidnapped her. If you want her back you have to profess your love for her. Blah blah blah." So then, (and you could tell this was all fake I just wanted to see what he would say) he said "tell her I love her more than anybody has ever loved anybody" and I was like "hahaha he's joking I know it. I mean he's gay he can't love me right?" Or I thought he meant as a friend and so I texted him back and said "wait are you serious?" And he said yeah. And so we face timed for a while and we're still friends and yeah. So that's my exciting life story. Okay I'll update again soon. Bye!