Journal

NOVEMBER 10, 2015

Wow okay I am so sorry I literally haven't updated in forever... Like legit forever! But I've had a lot of shiz going on in my life. Like oh you know... ANOTHER broken heart! Yay😒😭 Ugh people, I'm not saying don't fall in love... Just be cautious when doing so. If you think it will end badly, don't go for it. If people warn you, LISTEN TO THEM. There's nothing worse than being told "I told you so" when crying on a friends shoulder. There's also nothing worse than being led on, kissed (first kiss ever by the way. Great job right?), told that he loves you, and then one day hear from like one of the people who you don't want to be right at all but is still your friend that he has a girlfriend, ask the guy that you love if it's true, him say no, and then find out that it's true. AND him like almost completely ignore you (wow sounds like new all over again right? Yes almost exactly the same. Except this is worse because he has started talking to me somewhat again) for how ever many weeks (I didn't count. I didn't want to know how long I had been in pain but I think it's like a month now idk probably longer) and then just start talking to you one day to say "hey sorry I haven't been talking a lot I'm giving you time. I really miss talking to you. Goodnight" and then me be like "wow um okay goodbye world! Like no he's not sorry. Nobody is stopping him from talking to me. Yeah okay just try goodbye. But like I can't learn to not respond so I did and said that nobody is stopping him from talking to me and he just kept telling me that he's sorry and it's like "omg shut up. I don't care anymore" even though I do but like seriously I wanted to tell him to shut up but I didn't I just ignored him. And like omg so okay tonight, he was texting me but he was also (obviously) texting his girlfriend and he texted me "I can't wait to see you tomorrow. You really brighten my day" and I'm like so happy but no of corse he's not talking to me how stupid am I to think that? Very and then he's just like "fuck sorry wrong person" and I was crushed. Like CRUSHED. I was just like oh okay um bye... Ugh well that's it for now I'll write more later I promise but I just had to say that. Bye!