THE UNREQUITED LOVE

52.

YN'S POV

When in the morning I knocked on Dad's door with my stuff and the kids, he was super worried, fortunately, they allowed me to crash into their house for a few days, well his exact words were, 'This is your home too baby you can stay here as long as you want'. After arranging the necessary stuff for me and the kids in the guest room of Dad's, Yeonjun reached home and he was equally shocked as Dad was. Excusing the kids I told Dad and Fiona everything, surprisingly,  didn't strike any panic attack or anything, I was oddly calm for the whole time. 

Dad was so angry at the whole Kim family and assured me not to worry about anything, being a great woman Fiona assured me that I was full of their support, how much I wished that my mother could say the same to me but I guess I wasn't that lucky. In the afternoon after lunch, I received an email from the company saying, my resignation was declined instead I was granted a month's paid leave.

Bullshit.

Wanting to clear my mind I decided to go to Jimin well Yeonjun tagged along cause he was worried about me, and I didn't complain. After my therapy session and so many concerned gazes from Jimin, we went to the convenience store as Yeonjun decided to cook his handmade pizza for me and the kids. 

When we reached home, Yeonjun snatched all of the grocery bags from me, they weren't even heavy but he was too stubborn I guess. Entering the home, I changed into the home slippers, as we entered the living room I saw the most unexpected person, Taehyung, standing in front of me staring at me with a frown decorating his lips. I panicked and mumbled,

"I'll be in my room"

Saying that I rushed into my room, locking the door of the bathroom behind me, I rummaged through the unpacked bag kept on the counter, hoping to find the pills as soon as possible but my hand found the very particular blade and my hands shook as I chanted to myself,

No YN, it's been more than a week.

No YN, don't hurt yourself.

No YN, don't do it.

Despite the words I was chanting to myself, my fingers wrapped around the sharp blade, before I could lift it there was a knock on the door which startled me completely, shoving the blade back into the bag I turned on the tap. There was another knock on the door but this time followed by words,

"YN it's me Taehyung"

"Please open the door, Strawberry"

Surprisingly my body listened to his words, I turned off the tap and with a shivering body unlocked the door revealing a worried Taehyung. He held my shoulders and searched my body for any injuries but I just looked at him as his words from earlier replayed in my head,

'I never wanted ever marry her'

I pulled myself away from his grip walking two steps back I looked up at him, and the traitor tears started flowing out from my eyes in front of him. He gulped nervously looking at me asked,

"Can I come in?"

 instead of replying, I stayed still unable to say anything, I don't even trust myself right now. I carefully took a step towards me noticing I didn't do anything he took a step closer and wrapped his arms around me engulfing me in a hug. I hate the way my body relaxed against his, I hate the way my breath became normal inhaling his scent, I hate the way my eyes teared up more showing my vulnerable side to him again and I hate the way my heart beat faster all because of him, I hate myself for unable to hate him.

He caressed my back and mumbled,

"Let it out"

A sob escaped my mouth and in no time I started wailing hiding my face in his chest, I punched his chest and spoke,