THE UNREQUITED LOVE

19.

I wrapped my palms around the warm cup of coffee while he was sitting across me all nervous, by the look on his I can tell he wants to say something but it's been 15 minutes he just ordered our coffee but didn't speak a word other than that. I cleared my throat and spoke,

"Let's talk"

He looks into my eyes nervously, pressed his lips together and after sighing heavily he spoke,

"I-I'm sorry Yn,... for everything"

He spoke first confusing me more, I raised my brows and unsurely asked,

"Why?"

He look at me and licked his pink lips, he gulped and continued,

"For leaving you and..."

He trailed off at the end of his sentence, and although he didn't complete it I know what is he talking about, I never imagined him apologizing to me for everything he actually did. I nodded and spoke,

"I can understand"

He look at me with doe eyes, I would lie if I said I didn't find it cute, Yuri resents his eyes, and I smiled internally remembering my baby's face but soon Rose's words washed me over with the cruel reality, my baby, Eun-woo. I need to talk about this with him, I look back at him and found him trying to say something but I was too impatient to let him, I gulped nervously and spoke,

"Earlier whatever Rose said-"

"Don't worry, I'll wait for you to get prepared"

He cut me in between surprising me way too much, I never thought he would be ready for all this not while having a girlfriend waiting for him on the other side of the world. I sighed and spoke,

"I'll apologize to your girlfriend later"

"You know you don't need to do that"

He said worriedly looking into my eyes, of course, I need to after all he is hers, I look down at my fingers kept on the table and spoke,

"I already prepared divorce papers"

I look back up at him to check his reaction, he was surely surprised but hurt...maybe, I can't put down my finger on any specific expression right now, his eyes were expressing so many things that I definitely never encountered and never want to. I tried my best to be more careful with my words and continued,

"Once I'll get pregnant...you can go back to your girlfriend"

I immediately look down at my hands as I feel him holding them gently, his skin was warmer than mine, and his hands were surely softer than mine, I look back up at him. He sighed heavily and spoke,

"YN"

I blinked nervously, I waited for him to continue but suddenly my throat becomes dry and it was almost impossible for me to speak, I gulped down wetting my dry throat as he studied my face carefully and almost pleaded,

"Can we please forget about her for some time?"

Well, the situation right now, him and me sitting in a cute cafe and trying to sort out our lives was not enough shocking for me but now it is, I am not believing in my ears, he needs to repeat. He seem to read my expression, he start circling the back of my right hand with his thumb, calming me down, I didn't even know that I wasn't calm, he exhaled heavily and requested,

"Please"

Unsure of myself I nodded slowly and saw him smiling, that boxy smile, I kinda like that but I'm no one to voice that out, it was unnecessary. I cleared my throat and pulled out my left hand from his grip and awkwardly put a strand of hair that was irritating me for the past few minutes now, behind my ear, I expected him to leave my right hand but a part of me wants to feel his skin for more time, I know that was selfish of me, gladly he didn't leave it, letting me enjoy the warmth for some more time.