I'm not an alcoholic
Well not exactly
I enjoy drinking
The pain it takes, that's just a bonus
The others are the bottle is easier to hide
The bitter liquid burns my throat but never leaves a mark
Alcohol is my new form of self harm
An alternative that never leaves a scar
A bitter wave of peace as the cold liquid floods through my body
The feeling of peace knowing my life is shortened by every sip, every bottle equals a year less of suffering for me.
As I feel myself slip into a coma
I smile knowing
I'll finally be free of every harmful word ever said to me
I'm not harming myself
But I am
The bottle is the blade
The liquid is the blood
The burn is the hidden mark
2:28Am
26th November 2023
E.w
