I am forever alone, even if I'm in a room full of people
Its the constant overwhelming feeling of never fitting in and forever being the back up friend.
Most people will ignore it but for me it's to big of a feeling to ignore, especially when I feel it 24 hours and 365 days at a time
I sometimes think
"I'm overreacting"
But only for a second before my mind resets and I remember how miserable I truly am.
Where I remember how badly I want to go home and sleep
Where I wake up and wish I hadn't, wishing I wasn't me
When I see myself in a mirror and hate how I look
When I remember I barely recognise myself anymore
My teeth are too crooked
My hair doesn't look right
I'm too skinny
I feel too fat, I wish I wasn't forever alone..
-E.w
