Yes I'm back!
The story I'll tell here didn't exactly happened on the day I published this.
This happened the whole month of November.
Basically, I decided to write every last day of the month (still not sure whether I do it like this or not) about the things that happened.
For the whole month, it was ecstatic to the point that it feels surreal, everything seems so not true.
In my college journey, I made new friends. And I also lost a few. It's hard yes, but it's also satisfying that I happened to make it a habit. My way of healing is to obtain and lose some people or even just few things that reminds me of them so I could heal on my own. But it's also suffocating to the point that I don't even know myself. I thought I was healing but no, I am losing myself again instead.
In life, everything come and go. And the permanent thing in the world is "change" so I chose to change. Not for anyone, but for myself. This month have been a rollercoaster ride for me. I experienced everything I never experienced before. As I write this, everything flashes back to my mind like a movie. I changed a lot, even just for a month.
Last month is so so so different from this month. It maybe hard but I am thankful that I survived and will survive the upcoming battles that will or may come my way.
I can also say that, now, I can finally do some things alone. Even though it's hard, and it takes a big toll on me, I still managed to do things alone.
I promise to my self that I will do everything in my power, as long as I can, to get what I really want in life.
With or without a partner, a woman, an independent woman, will thrive higher than anyone can imagine.
-Z ❣
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I Wish I Had The Courage To
HumorThis is not a story, mainly my rants about my fucked up life. These are the words and lines I wanted to tell them but I can't.
