𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐋𝐮𝐬𝐭 | 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐈𝐦𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐭

𝐓𝐨 𝐁𝐞 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝|𝐗𝐢𝐚𝐨

Summary:

This is a slight continuation of A Desire to Love which I have written earlier. The female reader finds herself overwhelmed with despairing emotions but Xiao comes to comfort her in her need.

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The last few days were the worst. No. The last few weeks. Maybe even months. It started to weigh on you terribly. So much so that it literally felt like you were carrying the entire world on your shoulders. And with that weight came the heaviness of emotions. You felt like you couldn't walk or move. It felt impossible. 

But somehow your feet kept walking and soon you found yourself in an open field. The cool night air was blowing. It felt even cooler against your wet face. The tears were streaming. They were endless and seemed to never end. 

Finally you couldn't move anymore. You lowered to your knees and then fell back into the grass. Laying back as you watched the stars glistening above. Even their beauty couldn't sway your heavy burden. These feelings. You lay there motionlessly but the tears still came.

More than anything you wanted to be comforted. You wanted someone to tell you it will be okay. You wanted someone to pull you through this moment but you also didn't want to carry this burden over to someone else. 

Hence why you left Liyue behind. Hence why you motionlessly walked away and into the wilderness. Wanting to get away from everyone. You didn't want anyone to see you like this. Yet, you sought comfort. Love.

Was there anything that even seemed positive in your life? In your entire existence? As you asked yourself the question, a very vivid image came to your mind. It was him. Throughout all your hardships he seemed to be the only thing that made you excited. Your endless pursuit in trying to make him happy and see him smile. Somehow that pursuit brought you happiness. No matter how withdrawn he seemed.

You also remember the time he told you about calling his name. 

"If you awake to a knife at your throat, if monsters dig their claws into you, if death comes knocking at your door, call out my name" A sigh follows as you recall those words. You really wanted to call out his name. 

But your burden of emotions was hardly something to bother him with. Instead you turn on your side then bring up your hands to cover your face. You cry. Again. Still. And in a soft whisper you say his name. More out of trying to comfort yourself with the beautiful sight as you think of him.

"Are you alright?" You suddenly hear someone ask in a soft and caring tone. You quickly pull your hands away and look up. You were now frozen. The crying stopped. All you could do was stare. He was here. He was actually here. Towering over you and nearby was Xiao. A concerned expression on his face as he looked you over.

"What happened to you?" He asked before looking side to side at the surrounding area. "Who hurt you? Where are they?" His tone seemed to build in tension and the will to kill someone if he had to.