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unrequited?- choi san

word count: 900+ 

warnings: angst?, fuckboy san, making out (are these even warnings? :/)

(fuckboy)!Choi sanXreader

Love hurts. What hurts more is knowing the one you love doesn't love you back. It might sound cliché like a flimsy dialogue, but this is what occurred.

This is what you found yourself going through this spring when you met Choi San.

February

"I'm San, it was nice to meet you. Hope we get along well."

"Uh yeah, same here umm S-San."

The smile he shot your way was enough to melt you right there but you somehow managed to keep your composure. Your roommate. The campus crush and heartthrob.

The one gifted with a heavenly body and godly looks, the one whom Cupid would envy and Aphrodite would surrender to. A smile that captures millions of hearts and has broken many.

June

A series of events occurred, and the stars aligned, when you both became friends.

"Why not take a picture? That'll last long." He smirked gulping down the water.

"S-shut up and stop wandering around naked!" You said turning around, a blush crept up your cheeks from being caught.

"Are you complaining now?? I saw you literally gawking at me!"

"Whatever, just wear something!" You threw a pillow at him.

You never realised if and when you caught feelings or maybe had them buried deep inside you before you met. "Why don't you date anyone?" He asked, taking a handful of chips from your bag.

You loved Saturdays. Having late-night movie marathons with San was just worth it. It was the quality time that you would wait to spend with him. You both would crack jokes, throw flirtatious comments and sometimes have deep conversations.

"It's just not my thing." You tried to ignore the soft gaze he held at you and kept your eyes on the TV.

"Not your thing? Uh-hmm, but you're always whining about getting a boyfriend."

"Says the one who's dying to get a girlfriend."

"Who said?? I'd rather be here with you and enjoy my singleness~"

You couldn't stop the butterflies you'd get the whole night thinking about that one simple statement he said. Your heart held a soft spot for him nonetheless. You were scared to love but your heart wasn't.

Your heart was ready to go through the thrills of being in the rollercoaster of love and you couldn't stop it, no matter how hard you try. 

How could you?? When the disaster Choi San tempted you to push yourself off the cliff.

September

"Sann" you call out breathlessly.

You two have been fooling around for long enough and the sexual tension between you both has become overbearing.

The short glimpses turned into lingering stares, and small gestures became intimate moments, it was as if the dynamic of your friendship had shifted into a whole new dimension and neither of you could stop it.

That's how you found yourself in a closed room with him as you shamelessly made out with the godly person who was busily grabbing your waist trying to get some friction. it's true, you eventually find yourself walking through the door you once wished would open.

"You drive me crazy"

You don't know how you got there, at that moment your brain was empty, his name was all you could say. His lips were all you could taste, his cologne was all you could smell and his body was all you felt. It was all him.

"What if-" you tried to break away to breathe.

"Shut up, just kiss me" he cupped your face and went in deeper.

Honestly, you had thoughts about what kissing Choi San would be like, before. In your dreams, there were plenty of times you kissed him, but this was different.

It was real, alive and wild. lips, tongue, teeth, repeat.

November

You contemplated whether what you were feeling was appropriate or not. San wasn't your boyfriend. The clock showed the time 02:00 am. You sighed. You should've thought about this before you started this.

A bad boy and a naive girl, such a dreamy trope. This wasn't the first time you've cried about him.

There were numerous times when he used to bring home girls at night which had you bothered and jealous until you had to put yourself to sleep keeping the tears at a minimum.

"Gosh san what do I do now?!" you stated helplessly.

He was a playboy. There was nothing you could do to change that fact. You fell for him. For his games. The sweet smiles. Simple touches. Everything.

"Do you even know how pretty you look with your hair down?"

"See, saying I love you is easy. Love you y/n."

"Shut up, just kiss me."

"You drive me crazy."

His words kept roaming in your head like a mantra. Your life was like a movie when he was in it. He was the crazy one in your boring universe. Your source of craziness and sadness. The screen of your phone lit up, your feelings giving way to surprise. Of course, it had to be him.

San:

Yo!

You up?

I can't sleep

Can you come to my room👉🏻👈🏻

You:

Yes

I'm

Be there in 5!

No matter how hurt or heartbroken you were, you always go back to him. You know in no world what you're doing is right but...What you didn't know is,

Somewhere deep in his heart, you have a special place. No matter how many girls he talks to, no one clicks with him like you do.

No one gets him or makes him feel like you do. But he doesn't want to lose you, at any cost and he's unsure of what steps he should take. This is new for him. Very new.

San:

Be quick, princess

I have something

For you ✨

an: COMEBACK!!!!!!!! OMG THEY ARE SO GOOOD! aahnnn and yes update!! this is something i wanted to write for a long time. hope you like~~ thanks for interacting lysm<3