After (Love in the Air)

Deep End (4)

A/N **DISCLAIMER I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL, NOTHING U READ SHOULD BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY IT IS FICTION**

When the door opened Felix was met with a pale, shaking Rain. His face was stained with recent tears but when his eyes met Felix's he seemed to relax ever so slightly. He fell into Felix's waiting arms and began to sob. Felix just held the boy, sinking to the floor and pulling him into his lap.

"Shhh, Nollie, it's going to be okay, just breathe for me"

That just made him cry harder, burrowing his head in the crook of Rain's neck. But Felix didn't falter, he just rocked slowly back and forth whispering words of comfort into Rain's ear

When Rain was calm enough, Felix helped him to his feet. Chan, who had been waiting by the car, came over to help Felix guide the boy onto the couch.

"I'll go get you something to eat, yeah Rainy?"

Rain made a small noise that Chan must have taken as a yes because he shuffled out of the room. As he left Felix turned all his attention to Rain, who was still clinging to him.

"Noeul, you want to talk?"

"Mhm" he nodded, leaning away to look up at Felix. "I don't know what to do Lixie, he's killing himself and I-I- can't help. I need him Lix"

"Deep breathes Noeul," Felix said gently, "now I want you to just listen to me, yeah? You can help him. You will help him because you love him. No matter what you do you will help because it shows you care. Without Channie Hyung I would not have recovered and although it took awhile and it will never be truly gone I know he will always be there for me. He is my family, all the boys are and that gives me strength. You will give him strength. Chan Hyung can give you advice and I will give you cuddles" Felix said, leaning over to tackle Rain into yet another hug, "okay mate?"

Rain let out a small chuckle, reaching up to wrap his arms around Felix's neck, "thanks Lixie"

"Anything for Nollie"

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It didn't take too long for Chan to come back holding a plate of what appeared to be takeout in one hand and a glass of water in the other.

"You didn't have to Chan Hyung, I could have..." Rain trailed off, accepting the food

"Can't have you not eating, now can we?" Chan joked. There was an awkward pause as Felix cast him a small glare, "haha" he laughed weakly, "sorry, wasn't thinking. Now Rain, what do you need?"

"I don't know. I just don't know what to do."

"First things first, do you know if this has happened before? Like is it a relapse?"

"I'm not sure. Not while we have been together. P'Pai would know but he's away on a trip and I can't call him, fuck"

"Hey, hey, Rain, take a deep breath for hyung. That's okay, when is he due to back"

"Day after tomorrow, maybe tomorrow"

"That's okay, he will know what to do if this has happened before. Now all you have to do is try to get him to eat something tonight and tomorrow."

"Okay" Rain replied shakingly. Felix must have sensed his rising panic because he leaned down and grabbed Rain's hand in his own, squeezing it softly. Before continuing Chan looked about it Felix.

"Lixie, you okay"

Shit. Felix's ED. They were literally talking about it right in front of him. Quickly Rain turned to Felix, "you can go, if you need"

"Guys, chill. I am fine. Promise. I will tell you if anything is wrong"

"H-how do I make him eat?" Rain asked